u/Simple_Zebra5623

(Warning eng is not my native language)

I had to put my sweet baby down after being 14 years with him

, his name was Martín and he was a white poodle toy

He had epilepsy and he was medicated by me everyday, at 6am, 14:00 and 22:00 he got his first seizure on 2023

3 days ago he randomly started to poop, pee and vomit without control, his poops were first solid and then slowly evolved into liquid poop with blood on it, he pooped so much his fur got dirty and no matter how much we cleaned him, he got dirty again by how much he pooped, he was always smelly with poop smell now and it was gross

Urine was more controlled as we buy him diapers and changed them often

Vomit was awful as he started to vomit all the food and then bilis as he had nothing on his stomach to vomit

He couldnt eat as he puked it out soon after and later he just gave up, he didnt eat at all, same for water

We took care of him but then he suddently got worse, seizures and diarrea at the same time, my sweet doggy was in pain. He whined and cried, he could only crawl now as his legs quickly gave up under his own weight

He started to get skinny, it happened so fast

We decided to let him go this night, it was traumatic, he left this world as i pet his head

I miss him so much and not even 24 hours have passed, i miss the sound of his breathing, of him moving on his bed, of his nails as he walked

Seeing the empty space where his bed used to be hurts me so much

I feel like its my fault somehow, i feel horrible, my sweet dear doggy was in so much pain and i tried to help but it all failed

I feel horrible, i couldnt sleep at all as the silence of my room just reminds me he isnt here with me at all

It hurts me so much, all his stuff is here, yet

He left