Post Disease Trauma
I'm a unique case in this i think i had a unknown "chronic" condition at a very young age which turned out to be dry beri beri (b1 deficiency), after treating it my life instantly got 100000x better since i was at the point of ending it before that.
Treatment didn't cure me 100% as in nerves in my arms still were very sensetive, after a point this stopped improving completely.
I suffered all this at a very, very young age and afterwards it was difficult to get friends and especially romantic partners since i was completely unable to relate to anyone and i also missed out so many years of my life.
Now i once again am suffering from a different cause (bile reflux) and yet again i completely disconnected from all life took me 5 months to get back in but i think this condition is actually going to be chronic, because i think there is something fundamentally wrong with me and i cant figure out for the life of me what it is. what caused my b1 deficiency was undetermined it could be absolutely anything and i very much suspect whatever caused the b1 deficiency is also a factor in my bile reflux or b1 deficiency itself damaged all my nerves throughout my entire body because i had very unexplainable nerve problems after drinking some alcohol or using nicotine for a very little bit. right now even if i sleep a bit wrong my face will go numb my arm will go numb or ill get neck pain.
I highly suspect that my vagus nerve was somewhat damaged by the b1 deficiency or my nerves had a developmental or genetic issue from the start that made them highly intolerant of any environmental stress, such as b1 being a bit low. Btw i never knew how low my b1 was since i was not diagnosed by blood test but by myself after i gave up all hope from doctors and took some benfothiamine, my symptoms vanished overnight.
if anyone has any idea what may have been wrong with me please help