u/Sirius9004

Hello, I'm a 21M and have had depression for a very long time, feeling stressed daily, can hardly get out of bed. I also have very bad social anxiety, and have really hard time socialising even in low pressure interactions. It started getting bad around age 15 so I've been like this for about 6 years, is it worth talking to a GP? Will it actually make a difference? I'm so used to living like this I can't even imagine anything else so that's why I'm asking really. I've tried to fix things myself but didn't work out, I always fall back to my same routine where I wake up late and basically do nothing all day. Also, what should i expect if I do reach out to a GP? I live in the UK btw.

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So I've been struggling with this for a very long time, I started feeling depressed around age 14 and it's been getting worse over time. I'm currently 21 and my life is a mess. I wake up late (1-2pm) I get up and just do nothing, might spend like an hour thinking about things. I then would go downstairs, have something small to eat then leave the house for a few hours, helps with stress a lot. While I'm out I also chain-smoke to kill time because I'm literally just doing nothing but trying to kill time, because at this point I don't feel like there is really a purpose to my life I'm just existing. Also, I daydream a lot, I believe it's called maladaptive daydreaming, I could literally spend hours thinking about different scenarios and I waste so much time doing that. I literally live inside my head more than I live in real life.

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My social life is non-existent, I have extremely bad social anxiety and can't keep a conversation, I sometimes mumble words because I feel so much pressure. I'm also a naturally shy person so that doesn't help, and I don't know what I can do to stop feeling all of this pressure whenever I interact with people. I also for some reason have trouble with finding the words, I sometimes don't know how to properly express what I'm trying to say, and have this habit of forgetting words, and it can be very awkward and I feel like an idiot. Also, I am distant with my family, both emotionally and socially.

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I've been trying to escape my comfort zone but it's been extremely difficult I've been like this for so long I don't even know how do to that, I attempted at fixing my sleep schedule and it went fine after few days but I fell back to my usual schedule. Every day is the same, I literally do the exact same thing, and I don't have the energy to change, I'm so mentally exhausted and tired.

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I also have suicidal thoughts, and I just feel so dead inside and don't want to do anything. I attempted twice at 15, I would not try anything like that now, but I still feel very sad inside.

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I was bullied throughout high school and was judged a lot, would be made fun and never felt like I fit in with any group of people, which made me feel like there was something wrong with me, like I'm not capable of doing things other people are capable of, which made me believe I was "lesser" compared to everyone else.

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I just want to change my life and start actuslly being happy rather than faking it, never contacted a GP or anything, or ever talked about this to anyone, even though I've been like this for years. I'm very emotionally and socially isolated. And feel embarrassed with myself about my situation.

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Srry for making this so long, there is a lot more that i haven't talked about, but If anyone is willing to share anything, would be greatly appreciated.

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So I've been struggling with this for a very long time, I started feeling depressed around age 14 and it's been getting worse over time. I'm currently 21 and my life is a mess. I wake up late (1-2pm) I get up and just do nothing, might spend like an hour thinking about things. I then would go downstairs, have something small to eat then leave the house for a few hours, helps with stress a lot. While I'm out I also chain-smoke to kill time because I'm literally just doing nothing but trying to kill time, because at this point I don't feel like there is really a purpose to my life I'm just existing. Also, I daydream a lot, I believe it's called maladaptive daydreaming, I could literally spend hours thinking about different scenarios and I waste so much time doing that. I literally live inside my head more than I live in real life.

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My social life is non-existent, I have extremely bad social anxiety and can't keep a conversation, I sometimes mumble words because I feel so much pressure. I'm also a naturally shy person so that doesn't help, and I don't know what I can do to stop feeling all of this pressure whenever I interact with people. I also for some reason have trouble with finding the words, I sometimes don't know how to properly express what I'm trying to say, and have this habit of forgetting words, and it can be very awkward and I feel like an idiot. Also, I am distant with my family, both emotionally and socially.

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I've been trying to escape my comfort zone but it's been extremely difficult I've been like this for so long I don't even know how do to that, I attempted at fixing my sleep schedule and it went fine after few days but I fell back to my usual schedule. Every day is the same, I literally do the exact same thing, and I don't have the energy to change, I'm so mentally exhausted and tired.

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I also have suicidal thoughts, and I just feel so dead inside and don't want to do anything. I attempted twice at 15, I would not try anything like that now, but I still feel very sad inside.

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I was bullied throughout high school and was judged a lot, would be made fun and never felt like I fit in with any group of people, which made me feel like there was something wrong with me, like I'm not capable of doing things other people are capable of, which made me believe I was "lesser" compared to everyone else.

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I just want to change my life and start actuslly being happy rather than faking it, never contacted a GP or anything, or ever talked about this to anyone, even though I've been like this for years. I'm very emotionally and socially isolated. And feel embarrassed with myself about my situation.

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If anyone is willing to share anything, would be greatly appreciated.

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