Why, went left alone, does my brain always go to strife, fighting, winning arguments, etc? Is it possible to reset your default to pleasant?
This has been driving me crazy lately. So I do my daily morning walks for my stupid mental health (/s). Typically I listen to audio books or podcasts but lately I've been trying to do "no inputs" days where I don't bring my phone. Just me and my thoughts.
The first 15mins is usually my brain talking about this is stupid and these walks aren't really doing anything. (I wear a 15lbs vest but it's not that taxing). But after that it quiets down.
Then it starts in with all these scenarios where I'm fighting/arguing (and winning of course) with different people in my life. People that I legit care about and some that are whatever. My wife, people at work etc.
But it's always negative. And I'll stop myself. "self, why tf are you always spinning these negative scenes that are in no way based in reality?"
I hate that I think that way and, if possible, I'd like to steer my brain towards something more positive. It doesn't have to be puppies and rainbows but just not doom and gloom like it is the default now.
Anyone else experience this? I'm ASSuming I'm not the only one.