My motivation is so I don't have to keep secrets about my life anymore and don't get distorted mental models of my ideal reality. I can reliably make it to 7 days.
I'm curious because I've seen alot of religious people in this sub, and articles on psychology today say that most of the effects of porn addiction are caused by guilt and anxiety and is backed up by what wikipedia says.
Give me your distorted opinions on porn. I find myself thinking sometimes that while the porn industry is exploitative, the furry community's porn is just mutual fun between autistic people that have sexual special interests. I know that it's making my social life difficult because of that distorted opinion so I'm eager to be rid of that.
Sometimes I just wish I could chop my penis off, I'm already going to take testosterone blockers to chemically castrate myself
I want to know.
This theory comes from 3 pieces of evidence.
1 Samus's infection and surgery taking way too long to be natural. She was out for hours, while most sectors in fusion and dread are fully infected within minutes
2 Both Quiet Robe X and the SA-X sacrifice themselves for Samus.
I think the X are defending themselves from the Chozo and the Federation. A single X in disguise not infecting other Chozo until they get to ZDR?
Think about the timeline of events
The X exist on SR388
The Thoha colonize SR388 and create the metroids to counter the X, The metroids become uncontrollable and start wiping out the notably uninfected and unvaccinated Thoha. The Thoha contract the Mawkin to contain the metroids. The X witness the Mawkin kill the majority of the Thoha, who were recently their main threat. The Chozo X stows away aboard Raven beak's ship... then what?
What could have happened to get the X to attack Raven Beak? Perhaps he wanted to weaponize the X.
The X on SR388 go into hiding until Samus exterminates the Metroids. Notably SR388 has an uninfected population of animals. Are they perhaps a type of livestock?
An X emerges from a hornoad and infects Samus, a human species that the X are unfamiliar with, it gets confused when it's brought into surgery.
Samus's broken Varia suit is disassembled aboard the BSL and kept in the quarantine bay, this is speculation but, what if the reason the X took over the station was because they discovered the metroids onboard and fear the Federation exploiting the metroids to wipe them out, and when they discover Samus they mistake her for a Federation experiment? They abosrb every complicit scientist aboard the ship and leave the Etecoons and Dacoras alone.
The SAX tries and fails to stop samus from murdering X and breaks into the restricted zone, where it attempts to attack the metroids. This fails. The federation sends ships to exploit the X. One SAX battles Samus on the upper deck to prevent her from murdering the other X. Then when it witnesses Samus fighting against a metroid it realizes that Samus is opposed to the federation and helps her defeat their common enemy.
Most sentient X victims are disfigured, other than that scientist in sector 3 and quiet robe, the scientist needed to be whole to interface with the keyboard, and Quiet Robe X needed to be a familiar face. This includes the dripping purple Zombies and The Chozo X warriors. The X are locked in prison and in a hospital without consent for years and are pretty pissed when they get out. They get out and start trying to hunt Raven Beak and see Samus as one of Raven beak's chozo warriors. They don't trust Quiet robe's memories and activate the Emmi.
One Raven Beak is defeated, Quiet Robe's X decides to forgive Samus because Raven Beak is dead, unaware of the Itorash hurtling down to the surface and dooming them all.
I had tried to bring up my porn addiction months ago, and then they start saying I'm preying on women, so I post my browser history on ao3 to prove that I'm gay which has explicit works but the tags and descriptions are censored because I don't want to show people anything approaching porn or descriptions, I should have censored the titles too. I told them that I had harmed my testicles in an attempt to quit porn and had harmed my arm because they said that they would dox me and I was distressed.
Would you cancel me? or just refuse to speak to me> or tell me I deserve to die?
I mean in relation to me specifically, not any of you, if porn has harmed you somehow that isn't someone being sexist and afraid that's valid. And I mean porn specifically, not someone who does porn. Someone who does porn can harm you but that's their choice not the porn's and should be treated as such. I've always been very seperate from the actuall exploitative porn industry, and was always in art communities, so I haven't experienced exploitation.
Sexual assault is assault, the sex shouldn't get special negative treatment, the fact that someone's assaulting you should be enough.
Sexual harassment is harassment, sex is just a motivation, not why it hurts, it hurts that they're devaluing your actions and ignoring you.
(edit)The loss of control is the main thing that sets sexual harm apart from regular harm, it's deeper. I recently asked a friend about his experiences. I've felt that many times on porn so I I think I under stand now.
(edit over)
No I don't think people should just have the ability to do whatever they like in the privacy of their own home, people deserve the ability to speak up about both positive an negative experiences about sex, it reminds me of "It's okay to be gay if you don't shove it in my face" and "Seperate but equal" segregation. It's not healthy for an honest society.
I do think should be able to talk about their kinks and crap and thirst and stuff without the immediate social devaluing. It's like oh you're gay sounding, you must be a creep who's pretending to be a woman! instead of trans or just naturally sounding that way.
Everything that has harmed me about porn has been from people being afraid of me or me anticipating people hating me.
I hear that we'll see the fusion zero suit again.
Like your dream regeneration but they have to share the stage with someone else.
day 13 of quitting porn.
Pocd or pedophile ocd is when your brain tries to convince you are a pedo when you aren't. Porn gave me alot of intrusive thoughts when looking at anything that vaguely was alive.
I messaged someone who was a minor prior to september 2025 in december 2025, either (unsure faulty memory can't check since I deleted the messages, but it's a twitter dm) that I felt like a pedo so I cut my privates, or just that I cut myself. They blocked me either way afterward.
I sincerely hate porn.
day 12 of quitting porn.
I want to be honest.
I made jokes in a Discord. They were edgy, personal, and socially awkward. I understand why people found them uncomfortable, and I apologized for that.
You see, The server had an ongoing joke where one user was another user’s “wifey,” with a running gag about “cheating” with anime characters. I tried participating in that bit. My messages used the joke as a joke. For example, I made comments about anime characters being “wifey” or not "wifey" too, which contradicts the claim that I thought this was a literal real relationship.
When I asked “are you and ___ poly?” I was asking about the internal joke logic because the “wifey” gag involved constant joking about “cheating” with fictional characters, and I thought it wouldn't be strange for one of them to say yes and go along with the bit. I understand that this was poorly phrased, but it was not an attempt to pry into anyone’s real sex life or relationship.
I was not trying to roleplay sexually with anyone or “get into anyone’s pants.” I was trying to participate in a joke.
I made some comments about porn and wanting to be open about it in the server that I later deleted within minutes. These were tied to personal issues, including OCD and a toxic addiction to pornography that I have been actively trying to get away from for a long time, for more than 4 years. I understand those comments made people uncomfortable.
I apologized multiple times. My apology was sincere as far as I could make it. I apologized for making people uncomfortable, joking badly. I apologized twice, because of my real event OCD. I understand that repeated apologies and revisiting the conflict may have made things worse, but that came from guilt and real event OCD.
The accusations are that I believed a joke was a real relationship, repeatedly tried to roleplay with someone, and was acting with sexual intent. I do not believe my message logs support that. There were also accusations that I was being creepy, and that I believed a joking “wifey” bit between users was a real relationship.
What happened is that I made socially awkward, edgy, and intrusive jokes that landed badly. That is the truth.
What it does not support is the claim that I was acting with predatory intent.
People discussed doxxing me, mocked me with insults and images, joked about shooting me, and continued talking about me after saying they did not care. I self harmed and considered giving them my address because of my OCD.
I am willing to own everything, but I am not a creep.
I'm on day 11 of quitting porn, I have a bunch of energy and can't distract myself with youtube anymore, I don't know how I'm goint to make it through my day to day existence without being able to distract myself... is this normal?
On the brightside all the innappropriate thoughts have stopped and I am able to filter my actions less.
So on discord, there are these two people that joke that they're eachother's wife. I try and joke with them about that, after asking for permission, I get the response that everything can be yuri if you try hard enough, then because I have issues with gay porn and am open about it, I'm somehow trying to get into their pants according to them. I apologized for being creepy and weird and they threaten to dox me and tell me my apology is worthless and tell me I'm not leaving the server on time which I didn't because people were still talking to me. I rejoined to apologize again because I felt bad.
I check back under an alt that didn't talk to see what they were saying, and even though they said they didn't care and that I could drop it. i am on ao3 and all my stories are sfw. I'm from the USA. they also involved the time where I criticized myself for failing to not be transphobic with the riddle scale of homophobia as something worth laughing at too. they also discussed doxing me.
I self harmed myself pretty badly and my family sent me to a mental hospital after that for a week and I got out and I'm still scared. They're probably going to come after me. I'm scared, really scared and my ocd won't leave me alone. They called me emotionally manipulative for self harming.
I have OCD, autism, adhd and a porn addiction that I'm trying to get away from, currently 9 days free. All are relevant. I'm not really socially calibrated. I'm techinically pan and able to be attracted to anything but women have never really interested me so I'm functionally gay.
The accusations: that I thought a joke "wifey" dynamic between two users was a real relationship, that I repeatedly tried to roleplay with her, and that I was probably into women because my messages creeped her out.
Here's the record so that I'm honest and not hiding anything I don't want them to dox me or cancel me or harass me or shoot me:
Two messages I posted and deleted withing minutes that they somehow got screenshots of:
"I'd rather discuss porn than food" I have a feeling I was being dismissive but I'm not really sure.
"I need to find a place where people won't freak out when I mention porn" the second message was actually advice from my brother
these were messges I posted because of my ocd interacting with my porn addiction, that I deleted minutes after posting,
"kamoshida is an insult to smut" a rapist character doesn't belong in smut. They reacted badly to this
The wifey jokes
The server had an ongoing joke, one user was "wifey" to another, with a running gag about "cheating" with anime characters. I tried to participate in the bit by trying to reflect the stuff that they were saying and being a little edgy, I was not trying to get into anyone's pants or roleplay I was trying to joke which was edgy very edgy, I have trouble with social norms and my brother doesn't blame me or them for it ending up badly:
"discord user ____ will never return to you on threat of wifey's life 🔪y meet 🔪y" sort of mwahahahahing and over the top is how I introduced it.
"(please say yes, it will go on my abusive wife performance review)" referencing a fictional performance review
The accusation that I thought this was a real relationship is directly contradicted by my own messages. I did not think it was real nor was I trying to sexually harass anybody
"you have so many wifeys" in reference to the "cheating" with anime characters
"because obviously nobody makes zero the wifey" zero is an anime character. Someone who thought this was a real relationship doesn't say that.
I was blocked after this question below, I was asking about the wifey lore between her and the other user, because cheating kept happening I thought the relationship was weird in terms of the lore an definitely not straight.
"are you and ____ poly?" asking about the "wifey" lore, though it was interpreted as an intrusive question.
My apology I delivered two months later "I was sincere, I can't let things go, goodbye. I'm sorry aprl for asking questions, I'm sorry for joking around like a fratbro, I'm sorry for being angry. I am sorry for making people uncomfortable. I'm saying this because uncomfortable thoughts are staying in my head and I want to let them go. I'm leaving."
a year later after I had left the server, I had an impulse to check if I had said anything incel like like "I'm stuff" in reply to someone saying "I'm doing stuff". That was a mistake and I ended up apologizing again. They dogpiled on me and said they'd bully me.
What followed from them was horrible
"ban his corpse," a "kitchencel" label, emotes made from my images, doxxing talk, a joke about shooting me.
Please tell me if I sexually harassed anyone.
So on discord, there are these two people that joke that they're eachother's wife. I try and joke with them about that, after asking for permission, I get the response that everything can be yuri if you try hard enough, then because I have issues with gay porn and am open about it, I'm somehow trying to get into their pants according to them. I apologized for being creepy and weird and they threaten to dox me and tell me my apology is worthless and tell me I'm not leaving the server on time which I didn't because people were still talking to me. I rejoined to apologize again because I felt bad.
I check back under an alt that didn't talk to see what they were saying, and even though they said they didn't care and that I could drop it. i am on ao3 and all my stories are sfw. I'm from the USA. they also involved the time where I criticized myself for failing to not be transphobic with the riddle scale of homophobia as something worth laughing at too. they also discussed doxing me.
I self harmed myself pretty badly and my family sent me to a mental hospital after that for a week and I got out and I'm still scared. They're probably going to come after me. I'm scared, really scared and my ocd won't leave me alone. They called me emotionally manipulative for self harming.
I have OCD, autism, adhd and a porn addiction that I'm trying to get away from, currently 9 days free. All are relevant. I'm not really socially calibrated.
The accusations: that I thought a joke "wifey" dynamic between two users was a real relationship, that I repeatedly tried to roleplay with her, and that I was probably into women because my messages creeped her out.
Here's the record so that I'm honest and not hiding anything I don't want them to dox me or cancel me or harass me or shoot me:
Two messages I posted and deleted withing minutes that they somehow got screenshots of:
"I'd rather discuss porn than food" I have a feeling I was being dismissive but I'm not really sure.
"I need to find a place where people won't freak out when I mention porn" the second message was actually advice from my brother
these were messges I posted because of my ocd interacting with my porn addiction, that I deleted minutes after posting,
"kamoshida is an insult to smut" a rapist character doesn't belong in smut.
The wifey jokes
The server had an ongoing joke, one user was "wifey" to another, with a running gag about "cheating" with anime characters. I tried to participate in the bit by trying to reflect the stuff that they were saying and being a little edgy, I was not trying to get into anyone's pants or roleplay I was trying to joke which was edgy very edgy:
"discord user ____ will never return to you on threat of wifey's life 🔪y meet 🔪y" sor of mwahahahah ing
"(please say yes, it will go on my abusive wife performance review)"
The accusation that I thought this was a real relationship is directly contradicted by my own messages. I did not think it was real nor was I trying to sexually harass anybody
"you have so many wifeys" in reference to the "cheating" with anime characters
"because obviously nobody makes zero the wifey" zero is an anime character. Someone who thought this was a real relationship doesn't say that.
I was blocked after this question below, I was asking about the wifey lore between her and the other user, because cheating kept happening I thought the relationship was weird in terms of the lore an definitely not straight.
"are you and ____ poly?" asking about the "wifey" lore, though it was interpreted as an intrusive question.
My apology I delivered two months later "I was sincere, I can't let things go, goodbye. I'm sorry aprl for asking questions, I'm sorry for joking around like a fratbro, I'm sorry for being angry. I am sorry for making people uncomfortable. I'm saying this because uncomfortable thoughts are staying in my head and I want to let them go. I'm leaving."
a year later after I had left the server, I had an impulse to check if I had said anything incel like like "I'm stuff" in reply to someone saying "I'm doing stuff". That was a mistake and I ended up apologizing again. They dogpiled on me and said they'd bully me.
What followed from them was horrible
"ban his corpse," a "kitchencel" label, emotes made from my images, doxxing talk, a joke about shooting me.
https://www.verywellhealth.com/pelvic-floor-exercises-7484238
My main obstacle at the start of week two for a long time is feeling really pent up and thinking I want relief from it very badly, but recently I tried these excercises, and it just makes that feeling go away pretty much immediately. It helps you develop control over those muscles so that you can relax and tighten them as needed.
Day nine of avoiding porn.
I don't think the statue of liberty moved across the city by itself, it just teleported through a photograph or a postage stamp or a piece of graffiti. Problem solved. No statue moving across the city in the middle of the night.
The image of an angel becomes an angel itself right? First time that lore solves a plothole. Jury is still out on whether that creates a duplicate or not, in village of the angels it's depicted as remote angel manifestation.
I can't stand how tense quitting is making my crotch feel, and that's the only obstacle right now to quitting, other than psychological, is there something specific that I need to do to get it going?
I'm on day 8, my record is twelve days.
Edit: I did a little research, it seems pelvic floor excercises ease the tension of blue balls.
I think it would be pretty neat for the future show runner to explore the pocket watch sometime, and a regeneration story is perfect for it. Problem is that I'd only trust Stephen Moffat to do it, and I don't think he's inclined. A new showrunner would need to prove themselves first. I'm thinking it happens around the 24th regeneration, like a clock.