u/Slablanc

52M diagnosed at 48. I'm basically level 1 with an aspect of my spectrum in the level 2 range. I spent a lifetime masking to one extent or another.

Last night in therapy I realized that the identity that I most asociate with Self is also a Mask.

I don't know what to do with this information. I have 40+ years of history, of consequences and life choices wearing this mask I created at about 10 years old.

I have lived a life that isn't mine. I have a wife and kid that only know this mask. I have a career (for what it's worth) built on a falsehood.

What do I do?

I'm a 52M, since college I have sucessully made and maintained 2 friendships. Two people in 30 years. One is my wife, she's an amazing person to stay with me for the last 20 years. We're not able to live together because of my autism, not her fault at all, my inability to regulate is on me. The other person I see maybe 4 times a year and we don't communicate outside of that.

During this same period of time I watched every connection I had to someone from high school and college vanish.

It's really painful and I have no one outside of my therapist to talk to.

I wasn't diagnosed until 48, so I spent a lifetime with this major aspect of what makes me me completely hidden. But yet it dictated so much.

I have a daughter (16) and she helps a lot. I'm fearful she is and will continue to have the same struggles.

I don't really have much more to say, I just wanted someone to know.

I am really enjoying the game. I can get consistent Relic wins on Large Map / Hard Difficulty. The change of setting and havi.g to balance when and what to upgrade is great. Choices with game altering consequences. A good balance with RNG and being able to mitigate the randomness.

The assignments are kicking my ass.

I doubt I've unlocked everything. Beyond the three drills and elevator. What are some much have gadgets or unlocks before venturing beyond Relics mode.

Is there a way to track what I've unlocked within the game?

Next showing is 8:30 Saturday 6/6.
As a GenXer I have a deep fondness for this movie.

Also as a GenXer I hate that I have to give serious consideration to an 8:30 movie being too late for me to stay out.

Any hidden gems around the Union Park / Grand View section of Des Moines?