u/Solve-Et-Abrahadabra

I need to get some Te Reo Māori movies like the disney ones as physical copies to stop paying for the subscriptions. Anywhere you can download or buy them?

I'm still coming to terms that i've been in an abusive 12 year hot and cold discard loop. The emotional pain is real and has left so much trauma to work through and finally ending the cycle.

I guess when you know they were abusive emotionally it's harder to feel like it's real abuse if it's not physical but it FEELS physical. Do you need to get it confirmed if you know the pain is real? I have physical trauma responses from thoughts of them but I still think to myself I wasn't perfect either, my reactions were explosive. But they discarded me over and over. Their love was conditional and on their own terms and would retreat and become like a ghost when conflict came. The lies, the cheating, the betrayal, future faking, love bombing, putting all your hopes and dreams into them and pull the rug right out in front of you. To cold silence.

I'm looking to get EMDR therapy but part of me just feels ashamed. It could be worse and I still can't just get over this person that has locked me in a trauma bond. Does validating the abuse help? From a professional, not the internet, before doing the work of physically releasing the trauma

I'm still coming to terms that i've been in an abusive 12 year hot and cold discard loop. The emotional pain is real and has left so much trauma to work through and finally ending the cycle.

I guess when you know they were abusive emotionally it's harder to feel like it's real abuse if it's not physical but it FEELS physical. Do you need to get it confirmed if you know the pain is real? I have physical trauma responses from thoughts of them but I still think to myself I wasn't perfect either, my reactions were explosive. But they discarded me over and over. Their love was conditional and on their own terms and would retreat and become like a ghost when conflict came. The lies, the cheating, the betrayal, future faking, love bombing, putting all your hopes and dreams into them and pull the rug right out in front of you. To cold silence.

I'm looking to get EMDR therapy but part of me just feels ashamed. It could be worse and I still can't just get over this person that has locked me in a trauma bond. Does validating the abuse help? From a professional, not the internet, before doing the work of physically releasing the trauma