u/SoulFromHeaven

Now i am at a stage where nothing really excites me anymore. I really dont care about my future or anything. Today I bought a Bike(Cycle). I was excited before getting that but just after few minutes of riding it. I felt nothing. Getting a new bike was my dream since childhood. Now its infront of me but i feel nothing. Same goes to other things. I really dont care about them. Its been like a year that whatever used to excite me dont excite me anymore. i just want to go. idk i just want to keep walking, riding but dont want to stop, I am missing something. Its peace. I get irritate by people, society. i just want to live in the moment with me in soltitude with me and my thoughts and questioning. i cant realte how majority of people live. I have realised i can never live like them by chasing after chasing things, getting attention and validation, trying to prove others, I just want peace and nothing much to think about external things. i want to question about my existence, universe and other dimention. i feel like i was never meant to at this place. i just cant participate in what others do. I want to sleep peacefully and wake up peacefully without other stupid worries. I really dont know what will fll me from inside. Materalistic things might help me but they dont fill me. i am tired of wanting more. Now i want peace and know myself🙏

Now i am at a stage where nothing really excites me anymore. I really dont care about my future or anything. Today I bought a Bike(Cycle). I was excited before getting that but just after few minutes of riding it. I felt nothing. Getting a new bike was my dream since childhood. Now its infront of me but i feel nothing. Same goes to other things. I really dont care about them. Its been like a year that whatever used to excite me dont excite me anymore. i just want to go. idk i just want to keep walking, riding but dont want to stop, I am missing something. Its peace. I get irritate by people, society. i just want to live in the moment with me in soltitude

I am 20 M and I have AUDHD. I couldn't complete my highschool due to my mental illness. I have no skill , no job. I am lonely from 5 years. I live in toxic family. All they give me is mental torture. I need someone who can love me unconditionally 😭🙏. I just want to be loved and love someone deeply. I want to get rid of this place. I can't live like this anymore. I cry everyday from years... I just want to end this life now. I just need love who cares about me. I am so depressed from years now. Having no money and loving partner is killing me from inside . Please save me . I am so tied of world and I can't fight my mental illness alone. I don't even have money for my treatment. God I wish I die when I am asleep 😭🙏

I am 20 year old man with adhd and chronic illness. i was never good at study so i dropped out of high school. I am not so good looking , not tall. I have few skill but it need huge money to work on. i have no job no degree. Spirital Awakening made my life even worse. I have no desire to talk to people because they drain my energy. I cant relate to anyone from childhood. There was always feeling of being alien among people. I never got respect, loyalty. Its always chaose and trying to escape all time.All my life, I have felt alone and my family were always abusive and toxic towards me. Now i really struggle with my mental health and nobody cares about it. I have no one to love me, i geneuinely wish i could get someone to love me unconditionally but its impossible because nobody will love a person like me. I see no progress in life no matter how hard i try to change things. Now i feel like trapped here, . its all suffering till i grow old. I really dont wan to suffer a meaningless life, I am trapped in my body, society.....I wish i was never born..this world is not for me. I see nothing meaningful because everything is business and capitilised...I wish to never comeback here. i dont know how i am gonna survive here with all these problems. Self love is bullshit when you are struggling both physically and mentally. Its not easy saying just love yourself and do what you love. No its impossible because everything is realted to money. In few years we need to pay subscriptions to breathe

I am 20 year old man with adhd and chronic illness. i was never good at study so i dropped out of high school. I am not so good looking , not tall. I have few skill but it need huge money to work on. i have no job no degree. Spirital Awakening made my life even worse. I have no desire to talk to people because they drain my energy. I cant relate to anyone from childhood. There was always feeling of being alien among people. I never got respect, loyalty. Its always chaose and trying to escape all time. Being Starseed is to suffer here, There is nothing to learn in this planet. We came as a empty brain child there is nothing to learn if we didnt do any mistake. I just feel exausted and trapped here becaue i have to deal with a lot of things just to survival. All my life, I have felt alone and my family were always abusive and toxic towards me. Now i really struggle with my mental health and nobody cares about it. I have no one to love me, i geneuinely wish i could get someone to love me unconditionally but its impossible because nobody will love a person like me. I see no progress in life no matter how hard i try to change things. Now i feel like trapped here, i cant quit this life. its all suffering till i grow old. I really dont wan to suffer a meaningless life, I am trapped in my body, society.....I wish i was never born..this world is not for me. I see nothing meaningful because everything is business and capitilised. Dont tell me to love myself. i am the creator of my reality. thats not true because we live in system and people shape out life directly or indirectly.. You just cant go and grab something. People will get offended. This planet is somehow suffering planet for both human and oher animals. No one is happy being here. I feel like there is nothing to learn from here. We are born to suffer with expectations, Compete with eachother, FIght and debate with each other. Being jealous of each other. Thats how life operated in this planet from thousands of years. Nothing has changed. people are living in their fake ego and cowards to grow beyond that

I am going through a lot these days. I am a 20 year old man and I have undiagnosed adhd and probably autism too. As a child I have live in constant fear. I was never good at study. Now I have dropped out of highschool because I couldn't understand subjects. I don't like studying which makes me only work slave. I don't relate to society, education system, the world. I am a premature child as well. I am short and weak too.

I awakened last year and I realised I am Starseed. All I want is peace but I am stucked in toxic house with narcissist people who are constantly bullying and harrashing me for not completing my education because I can't. That's not for me. They beat me with giant thick sticks. I don't stop them because I fear I would do something wrong to them...... I am suffering from anxiety, depression and loneliness firm 4 years. I dont have money for treatment and my family don't care if I am alive or not😔

Now I have no skill, no job. My family don't feed me. Now I have eaten my last meal and I have no money for food. I can't work because I am physically weak. I am so lonely in life. I have no friends. I have noone to love me. All I want is to go home. I don't want to live anymore. All these year all I get was trauma, pain and suffering. I am creative person but I have no money to do anything. Please help me if you can teach me anything and give me a job. Please help me if you can. I literally have no money to eat food😭. PLEASE HELP ME🙏🙏. I don't want to die unnaturally. I am being suicidal all day. I just want to disappear from people around me.God please take me out of this planet 🙏😔😭

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If this is a “prison planet,” then why are we pushed so hard toward ambition, careers, and constant self-improvement?

School trains us. Jobs consume us. Dreams keep us chasing.

What if motivation itself is the trap — a system designed to keep consciousness distracted so it never questions the cycle?

If awakening is real, why is the entire structure of life built to prevent it?

So I had my spiritual awakening started at 17 and I realised it at 19. But after that everything fall apart. I have loose my all previous motivation. Now I have few new ambitions but I really don't like to talk to my family and relatives. I don't like chase things and live in constant fear and missing out. I really hate to talk to people close to me. I couldn't fit into their circle. I just want to escape from my place and live at somewhere quiet place. I have dropped out of high school due to ADHD and I really don't want to do job. Buying new things don't excite me anymore.Chasing things to live feels like a burden. I have lost my internet at many things.I really don't care about education and job now. I feel like modern education and job are the distraction from spiritual awakening because they keep people in loop of fear and missing out of materialistic things . They worship useless materialistic things. What I want is peace and being myself. I am so done with society and world. I want to find people like me which is rare and I feel like trapped here. I live in toxic family like they are NPC and I want to move away but I can't. I feel so disconnected at the same time I am learning about ancient and history. Those things fascinated me . I want to learn about universe, history and the dark things hidden from us but apart from internet I feel so disconnected. Everyone around feels like a bot NPC and they are guilt shaming me for not being slave to the system. I am so helpless because I am mentally and physically weak because of my premature birth. I can't do things I love because I am not able to find right people who care about me and my work