u/Soul_Knife

it's like I don't ever feel close to anyone in a way that I understand and actually feel, and I either feel alone and sad about it, or alone and happy that I can just be left alone. Or it doesn't cross my mind at all that I haven't spoken much to anyone for days.

Then I hear from other people stuff like "I feel safe around you. Your presence is calming. I can tell you anything and be myself around you, in ways that I can't with other people. I look forward to spending time with you/I enjoyed being with you" etc. And I know people aren't just saying that or buttering me up, I can tell they mean it.

it makes me go ???

I feel like I see everyone but no one sees me. Most of the time, that doesn't bother me or cross my mind. Other times it makes me bug out and get weirdly existential.

This has been happening since I got my pixel in late 2024, but it's gotten worse as time goes on. If my pixel is turned on and next to my mouse or keyboard, the mouse won't move for a bit and will jump around, and the keys I press won't register correctly, they'll either pause and then send all at once after I quit typing, or key presses will be duplicated or not show up at all.

At first, I could keep the pixel a foot away from them, and I could still use my wireless setup. Then I could put the phone under a book or behind something and it would still bug a little. Now the pixel has to be off. A few minutes ago I put the phone in the other room, turned the keyboard and mouse off, and then back on while next to their receivers so they could get a better signal, and they worked for a bit, then I had to turn the phone off in the other room for them to work!

The keyboard and mouse are logitech, they have the little USB 2.0 receivers, I think they're 2.4ghz. The pixel is on the 5ghz wifi network, bluetooth is off. It doesn't seem to matter which wifi band I'm using on the phone, or if it's in airplane mode, or if bluetooth is on or off.

I hope this doesn't sound crazy, but when I first bought the phone, if I held it for more than 15 minutes, my hand felt like it was burning a little and my fingers ached or tingled at times, but the phone wasn't hot temperature wise, if I put it against my face or leg. I tried all sorts of settings to see if that made a difference and it stopped doing that. I don't remember what I did though, but the problem got worse around that time. Probably a coincidence

I can't complain as I enjoy have any excuse to turn my phone off when using my PC. One device at a time is enough for my attention span

I'm wondering if anyone else has this problem?

Odd coincidence, three days in a row different people: my neighbor, my sister, a friend, and my brother, asked me to use my psychic powers. I said "I don't have psychic powers?" and then "Maybe? but I don't control when they work." and then "Okay, I'm getting a vibe from over here, I'm receiving a signal!"

Everytime I come up with something, completely inaccurate signals. I don't know why people are suddenly in agreement that I'm psychic while I myself don't believe it. We're all joking (except my neighbor seems to be taking it pretty seriously, for some reason. She's just like that, though).

I saw the moment someone's headlight went on a while back. I started thinking about the little streetlamps (lamps, since they're smaller) outside, and remembered the times I've been looking out the window when I swore I saw them turn on. A few days later, I was looking out during the day and saw one was just.... already on. Maybe I imagined them turning on? And my memory can be unreliable. Sometimes I swear something just appears, when it's been there a while; it catches my attention a certain way like it's phasing into existence or rendering before my eyes

So. I was sitting inside the local mexican restaurant. I look up out the window and notice it's suddenly dark. THEN I SEE THEM!!!! The streetlights come on and they don't flash on, they gradient-ed up over a second, so I couldn't mistake it.

I'm still riding that high.

I was trying to overwrite my previous pronunciation of some words by repeating them. You know the kind of words that you mispronounce because you only ever see them written? Such as epitome, lacuna, empyrean, nadir, et cetera.

Well the most recent one was transmogrify, which is an especially delightful word. It's vaguely related to another one of my recent favorite words, grotesque, which I was really getting into the etymology for a while back, but I digress.

I have the pronunciation down now, but I never closed the tab on it, so when I see it again I feel obliged to hear the pronunciation again.

Will this come in handy someday? I do not know, and I do not care