u/SourceArtistic3233

Hello I feel like I'm gonna lose my mind. My family is highly narcisstic. Alongside dealing with this 24/7 and never having any empathy or them caring about me at all.

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There is also a person in my family who won't stop listening to my every move. I live in a small house with thin walls, I've tried to get a white noise machine but it doesn't block out enough sound.

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Its not like we talk about this but I can tell by them making noise / coughing that they hear everything I do.

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I can be silent for 2.5 hours and as soon as I move my body and make 1 creak sound on my bed it will be an instant cough or noise in the other room.

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Every time I go to eat there is either one of 2 people who will come out to comment on what I'm making. Also to see exactly what I'm eating. They start to make comments about how I'm not eating if I end up sneaking food or being able to eat quietly, or just not eating but they will know and comment.

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Also they commented on every single show I had playing in my room constantly saying how dumb the shows were and how they could never watch those shows themselves. Now I don't watch anything unless its with headphones but its highly uncomfortable.

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Pretty much for the past year its gotten worse and worse until the point its every day, every hour, every minute with very few breaks.

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The only break I get is by working but I hate to work and it just makes me stressed and angry.

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I feel like I'm going to lose my mind. I havent been able to so anything at all except sit on my bed and go on my phone but that is getting to be not enough to do and I'm starting to get really frustrated with having no freedom.

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Sometimes around once every couple months I will be trying to ignore it and play video games. And sometimes I will be having fun and end up laughing but that is the worst. I get so anxious after that.

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Why are they so obsessed with me? I am starting to hate every single second of every day and everything is just so bad and there is no way out.

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Im pretty sure I'm gonna die here soon because they are constantly stressing me out and I can never eat. Its weird. So weird.

Hello everyone ever since I found out about me being gang stalked i have had no events for the past couple days straight. Usually its every day all up in my face like 5-20 times with people following me and harrasing me and staring at me.

Also the v2k I can pretty much tell what is and isnt my thoughts anymore. They let up so much, and then quietly tried 3 times last night to convince me in 3 different ways how me being "gang stalked" isnt real and how I made it up.

What do you think is next for me? Do they plan on stopping now? Do I have a handler who is dumber than most?

I am just fearing the weapons they might use again and how they like to fry my nervous system or turn my anxiety up to level 100 in the situations they dont want me to perform good in. I'm just confused. Do you really think I have a chance of changing my mind to think it wasnt them?

They were becoming increasingly noticeable but I still didn't notice them until recently. Maybe they think I am too out of it and for the first 5 years justified it by other explanations. Do they truly think I will go back to this?

Also does this mean that they are planning on stopping with me? Why would they try to trick me just to start back up again?

I hope they do start again so I can collect the evidence needed. Maybe I have a tumor or something already and am gonna die soon so they dont care?

Has this happened to anyone else?

Hello i feel like im currently going crazy somewhat. Im grappling with the idea and thought that I am being "gang stalked"

I am pretty sure its happening to me. At first I always complained about the people who "wouldn't leave me alone" and always parked next to me no matter where I parked and stared at me. I would also complain about the people who always seemed to cut me off in traffic, brake check me, stare at me in their car when we are the only 2 cars on a 4 lane road that is empty.

I always thought these were just random idiots out and about. But lately they have been so much all up on me it is too weird. Just yesterday a random person was swerving left and right behind me in traffic driving aggressively. Only behind me for around 5 seconds before we hit the red light. From there he proceeded to honk at me around 10 times. Why would a random person do this? I guess it could just be a crackhead.

But then back to where I park because I do doordash. I can choose any parking spot at any place and within 5 minutes there will be a car that parks within 5 car lengths and just sits and stares at me. I try to ignore them but it ends up making me so upset that I will end up having to drive away to another spot.

Im choosing spots far away from other cars, parking behind buildings, parking at closed restaurants, movie theaters at 6 am it doesn't matter where its always the same.

Lately they haven't even been parking normal they park sideways in the spots directly facing their car towards me sitting like 5 feet away. Could the people around me possibly be this strange? Wtf for real? This is what makes me think something is up its not normal behavior.

If someone gets to be following me and I change my route unexpectedly and maybe do a u turn and then another to get away it usually works out way too good.

Like the next 15-30 mins I don't have anyone near me harassing me like usually. It feels exactly like that one scene in the Truman show to where he changes his route and everything isn't as it should be and he is able to escape the loop.

It's starting to make me so angry I don't want to crash out on one of these people especially if they are just a random weirdo. They all seem to stare at me to try to make me upset though.

I do have a horrible gambling addiction too and it feels like when im doing so good with not gambling and saving money that they mess with me the most. It's like they want to keep me broke, unemployed aside from doordash, too stressed to eat, and also to just stress me 24/7 to try to make me lose my mind.

Can someone spare $1 for gas? I don't think im gonna make it home.

Will boost back right away!

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