The Alienator (grandparent) has now died
As long as I have dealt with this in my life I'm still at a loss of what to do.
My son, now 31, was kidnapped at age 8 by my own mother, his grandmother, and my ex, his bio father. He was hidden from me and alienated severely. I fought for years until I couldn't fight it anymore in court.
Then I thought it would end when he turned 18
Nope
So I kept reaching out and would think we were making progress then it would slide back again. I tried like hell to stay unemotional understanding and neutral knowing he's been through so much.
Waiting for my mother to die.
Waiting
Waiting
Well she finally died on the 15th at *95* years old. Still full of hate, still full of lies, no remorse, no truths, she took everything with her to the grave. So he called to tell me she's dead. That he loved her and will miss her and I kept my tongue and offered understanding. Until.
His girlfriend started praising her on Facebook. Of the beautiful soul she had will be missed, blah blah THEN THEN. THEN. started referring to my son as HER SON.
Over and over.
So I messaged her privately and said um he's My son! She started arguing "he's adopted you're not his mother anymore". Now that's not right. Instead of calling it the BULLSHIT that is, I remained calm and said oh youre so misinformed. There was no adoption. Only a name change and lies.
So then my son calls to yell at me that I had no right talking to his wife that way, and hung up on me. Another lie. They aren't married.
Then I'm blocked on Facebook by him and his "wife"
Today is his birthday. I can't even say happy birthday. I have a present I can't send him.
So today I talked to my daughter for over two hours and learned that he really has no memories of me before he was kidnapped. I was totally erased.
So long story short of it, how how how do I handle this? I've been erased, remain erased. I can keep on in my own life as I face but even if I don't talk about it, it's in my head daily. Daily. I had hope before. Rapidly losing it now. My husband is keeping me grounded but the only thing I can think about is without him, I'll have no option but end my own life to quell the thoughts I can't shut down on my own.
How do I handle this!???
I'm losing it.
Thank you.