u/Special-Comedian3699

so basically a few months ago i heard a "get a bf like joe goldberg" typa subliminal like the boy will be obsessed like joe goldberg. idk why i heardt it. but shit got real. now i have a bf yea he loves me i can see it in his efforts and actions but he has insane trust issues, like the things he did because of his damn trust issues and obsession just made me remember my past trauma of 2 years in 1 day. and now he is asking sorry 231 times like spamming me i am sorry forgive me. i feel like i am in a deadass toxic relationship but fact is im equally in love with him. fuck my life

moral of the story:- kids never take subliminals casually. shit can get bad

so basically a few months ago i heard a "get a bf like joe goldberg" typa subliminal like the boy will be obsessed like joe goldberg. idk why i heardt it. but shit got real. now i have a bf yea he loves me i can see it in his efforts and actions but he has insane trust issues, like the things he did because of his damn trust issues and obsession just made me remember my past trauma of 2 years in 1 day. and now he is asking sorry 231 times like spamming me i am sorry forgive me. i feel like i am in a deadass toxic relationship but fact is im equally in love with him. fuck my life

moral of the story:- kids never take subliminals casually. shit can get bad

i am confused literally, i wanna pursue either bio or bsc psychology(to be clinical psychologist and research abt human behaviour) pls suggest me some good reputed colleges (and also less fees)

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ik this will get ignored but idk where to rant now because i have 0 friends. so i am a 19 year old girl and i really really love music and singing. singing calms me down. music and singing gives me peace. i express my love for someone through songs, like yk singing that song for them, because i am not good with words. even when i was depressed (i am still suffering from depression) back in class 8 or 9, producing music or singing calmed me, it stopped me from harming myself. but looks like the universe doesnt want me to have anything loved. My interest for singing is the reason why conflicts happen in my home, and i hate conflicts. my mom had argued with and had given silent treatment to me before just because i expressed my interest in singing. she stopped my music classes. she thinks i want to build my career on music. no i dont want to. music and singing gives me peace and its my hobby, its something i loved the most, its something which calmed me. for 3-4 fucking years, I didn't touch my harmonium or properly practiced because i dont want any conflict in my house, i hate conflicts. it ruins my already worse mental health. i try everything to stop any conflict happening. for 3-4 years i didnt properly practice or produce any music because those were my peak years to build a career. i was studying for neet i and fully shifted my focus on neet and other competitive exams like iiser cuet. now after neet ended, when i told my mom today that i want to start singing again my mom started scolding me, yelling at me saying then why did u waste money and filled forms for other exams? i never said i wont study for those exams, i never said i want to make my career in singing. she has problem with me singing. this happened another time too. when i was in class 7 i found peace in painting (for context., i have been suffering from depression since class 7 and i didnt wanna kill or harm myself because i dont wanna leave my mom alone), i really loved painting, i painted whenever i got free time, guess what she did after she found out that i loved painting, she tore off all my paintings and instructed my drawing sir to make me only practice science diagrams. she wanted me to focus on studying, i understood why she wanted that so i acted accordingly for 3-4 years. she even said after 12 and neet i can do anything she wont stop me. but the things are repeating again. and my dad be saying they do so much for me but i am way too adamant and spoiled (i never asked anything from them because i knew the financial condition. i was always the 'easy' child. ik i shouldnt have been one).

i have decided to leave music and singing completely for good. neither i will touch my harmonium anymore, nor i will touch my guitar. i will sell them somewhere. my guitar is in fairly good condition and my harmonium is in okayish condition. i will leave music for good. i will stop singing. i cant tolerate anymore conflicts in the house.

why does the universe love taking everything i have ever loved with all my heart away from me? i never got my first love, everyone i loved left or betrayed me and my love for painting and singing got taken away. why do u do this to me God? dont i deserve to be happy just for once?

i lost myself today. i really lost myself. i promise my child will never go through anything i am going through.

i want to die. i hope i die. i hope someone kills me or i hope i get into a fatal accident. i want to make my mom feel that how it feels losing something/someone u really loved

i hope in my next life i get to live freely and fulfill my dreams.

hey, i’m a 19 y/o science student and recently i’ve been helping a few juniors with their studies, especially science.

kinda started doing it more seriously now because i want to manage my own college expenses and not depend too much on my parents.

turns out i actually enjoy teaching 😭 like breaking things down in a simple way and helping someone finally “get it” is lowkey satisfying

if anyone here (or your younger sibling) is struggling with studies, especially science, i don’t mind helping out.

also i am kinda jobless after neet so yea thought of tutoring kids from class 1 to class 10 to manage my own expenses.

hey, i’m a 19 y/o science student and recently i’ve been helping a few juniors with their studies, especially science.

kinda started doing it more seriously now because i want to manage my own college expenses and not depend too much on my parents.

turns out i actually enjoy teaching 😭 like breaking things down in a simple way and helping someone finally “get it” is lowkey satisfying

if anyone here (or your younger sibling) is struggling with studies, especially science, i don’t mind helping out.

anyone from sxc or dbpc? karon ami jaar opor crush khaisi se ei gular thekei passout?? bhai pls dm me if anyone is from sxc or dbpc. karon ami oor byapare insane lore jante chai which will give me ick

ye teeno milke humlogo ki chu kaat rha hai. dont trust anyone. dont trust these influencers on internet. sab ke sab fame ke liye kuch bhi kar rhe hai. chupchap show ko show ke tarah lo itne inlogo ke personal lives pe mat jhaako. ye teeno aur baaki splitsvillans milke humare chu kaat rhe hai guys. camera ke peeche sab dost hai sab dushman hai. bas fame ke liye itna natak