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OK, so this was when I was 16 and first started smoking pot, was meditating a lot and into lucid dreaming, Carlos Castaneda, and all things "spiritual".. a \*very\* interesting lesson about the subconscious I think!

So, as had happened only a handful of times in my life, I became lucid within a dream, and as usual either tried to fly or fuck lol, (forget which) but my subconscious resisted the lucidity by having me wake up into ANOTHER dream in which I was NOT lucid! Oh but wait!... I cleverly figured out that THIS dream was a dream TOO! (I thought I was hot shit! haha 😂)....

And you know what happened? My subconscious was NOT happy with me that I had claimed lucidity twice in a row, after it had concealed the first layer with another dream-within-a-dream to restore itself! So it immediately conjured an ENOURMOUS jester/demon-face, like 20-feet-tall, which looked exactly like the Green Goblin from Spiderman. staring angrily at me directly in front of me, forked tongue and all, and I exploded into full wakefulness like I had had a heart attack!

I think the lesson was this: yeah. lucidity is fun and magical and spiritual and all, but if we put you back to sleep into a SECOND dream and you dare to pull lucidity on us TWICE, we will show you that the subconscious is truly Boss and we can just scare the shit out of you any time we like to remind you lol. This experience is one reason why I have always shyed away from "dream work" in my spiritual path- not because there aren't secret lessons in dreams, (I do get "message" dreams occasionally!)... but I let them do their work on their own and reap the benefits of it without getting TOO involved consciously because... they surely know what they're doing and don't need my full participation!! 😏

OK, so this was when I was 16 and first started smoking pot, was meditating a lot and into lucid dreaming, Carlos Casteneda, and all things "spiritual".. a *very* interesting lesson about the subconscious I think!

So, as had happened only a handful of times in my life, I became lucid within a dream, and as usual either tried to fly or fuck lol, (forget which) but my subconscious resisted the lucidity by having me wake up into ANOTHER dream in which I was NOT lucid! Oh but wait!... I cleverly figured out that THIS dream was a dream TOO! (I thought I was hot shit! haha 😂)....

And you know what happened? My subconscious was NOT happy with me that I had claimed lucidity twice in a row, after it had concealed the first layer with another dream-within-a-dream to restore itself! So it is immediately conjured an ENOURMOUS jester/demon-face, like 20-feet-tall, which looked exactly like the Green Goblin from Spiderman. staring angrily at me directly in front of me, forked tongue and all, and I exploded into full wakefulness like I had had a heart attack!

I think the lesson was this: yeah. lucidity is fun and magical and spiritual and all, but if we put you back to sleep into a SECOND dream and you dare to pull lucidity on us TWICE, we will show you that the subconscious is truly Boss and we can just scare the shit out of you any time we like to remind you lol. This experience is one reason why I have always shyed away from "dream work" in my spiritual path- not because there aren't secret lessons in dreams, (I do get "message" dreams occasionally!)... but I let them do their work on their own and reap the benefits of it without getting TOO involved consciously because... they surely know what they're doing and don't need my full participation!! 😏

I've had this all my life but when I was 16 I kind of figured out some of the basic mechanics of how it works,

It's like seeing people's minds/ souls / personalities as geometric structures, they look like "Fractal volcanos emerging from luminous eggs" with a central vein that branches out into delicate fronds and electricity channeled through granite.

Does anyone else know what I mean? I mean my brain 🧠 literally translates every person I meet into these "geometric structures", it does this automatically + instantaneously, it's not a conscious thought-process, it's immediate

I call them Spires and I think they're composed of like 7 major "substances" that are analogous to aspects of personality like Will, Heart, Emotion / Intuition / etc...

There also seems to be a dimensional aspect to the structure like it splits off or branches out into like a series of progressively significant "levels" or "higher spaces"...

I've spent my whole life drawing diagrams of this phenomena+ trying to understand it but I don't think a single other human has really understood what I've always failed to fully explain, it's very isolating :(