u/SpinachMotor7366

so im a fresh grad and i recently graduated last month. way back before, i was always excited about graduating. always anticipating it mula 1st year college. naiimagine ko na sasahod ako at i would be able to have my own money and give back to my family. sabi ko pa kaya ko kahit anong trabaho, kakayanin ko para sa mga goals at dreams ko at sana magfast forward na ang time.

now, nandito na ko sa moment na to. sa time na finally, graduated na ko at makakahanap na ng trabaho.

but now idk what im feeling. i cant understand myself. kapag naghahanap ako ng trabaho and naiisip ko na yung mga kabatchmates ko is meron na, naiiyak ako. like nauuwi sa pagbbreakdown. gustong gusto ko magtrabaho at hanggat wala akong trabaho, pakiramdam ko malulubog lang ako sa lungkot. but then kapag nagkakaron naman ako ng offer, natatakot ako. kumakabog yung dibdib ko na hindi ko maintindihan. its like if walang trabaho and im just stuck, i feel so depressed tapos if something is coming naman, i feel so anxious. hirap na hirap na rin ko intindihin yung sarili ko right now. di ko alam ano bang problema ko hahaha ready ba ko o ano.

so hi im a fresh graduate and before graduation, sinubukan ko na maghanap ng trabaho. lahat ng mga classmates ko naghahanap na non and some are even working already kaya tinry ko rin. i did not know na matatanggap pala talaga ko. i finished the interview non and hr told me na ok na ko and they will send the job offer daw. but after ilang days, walang paramdam until they called me and asked me to go to the company. so i went thinking na they will discuss the job offer to me and the time i can start. kaso nagulat ako and sinabi na magstart na raw ako the next day and expect ko raw na yung salary is within the range ng expected salary ko (19-21k) and they will try daw to give the maximum. so as a fresh grad na nabigyan ng ganun opportunity, pumayag ako. i think 21k is high na for a fresh grad here provincial rate. so i was excited and pumayag ako at pumasok kinabukasan even without signing a contract yet. nilalakad pa kasi nila and they need someone to fill up the position na.

so ayun pumasok ako and tinuruan nung worker na aalis. tinurnover nya sakin yung work for a week. during the first day, super naoverwhelmed ako. i dont know paano iintindihin yung trabaho kasi ang daming information and jargons na di ko alam ang context. i would try to ask the employee na nagtuturo sakin but sinasabi nya na ganun daw talaga, masasanay din ako at maiintindihan ko kapag nagtagal. but i want to understand that now kasi paano ko sisimulan yung work without any idea and context. i wanted to quit agad sa first day but i did not. pumasok pa rin ako and every day lalo ako naooverwhelmed. i dont know paano ihahandle ang 5-6 different plants. as a fresh grad akala ko magaan muna but no, ang bigat agad na para bang tuwing papasok ako, nasosuffocate ako. so i talked to the manager na magbbackout na ko but they try to convinced me na wag muna at subukan ko. and they tried din na padaliin muna as much as possible. so i did kaso on my second week, ganun pa rin ang nafefeel ko. pakiramdam ko kaya ko yung trabaho and as time goes by, mamamaster ko talaga sya. but the problem is everytime pumapasok ako sa gate at naglalakad papuntang office, hindi ako makahinga. i feel really anxious and sad na 8-5 nanaman ako don. so now, i dont think the task is the problem kasi parang kaya ko naman e. pero why do i feel that way.

now, i think di talaga ko ready pa to work. i cant see myself na nabubuhay sa trabaho from 8-5 (+additional pa sa travel time) from monday to saturday. para kong sinasakal thinking of that. how i will live on that one day rest day. so i backout na talaga despite the 21k getting higher a bit. my mind and logic tell me to push thru it kasi san pa ko hahanap ng ganung kataas na offer nowadays. offers for fresh grad sa province ranges from 15-17k lang so its really a nice opportunity for me. but my heart naman tells me to stop muna. to rest for a while because i dont want to feel anxious again tuwing papasok. i want to be happy and notivated sa work, not anxious. i feel like this is a choice about calm/peace vs a high offer and im choosing peace. but di rin naman ako super peaceful now kasi idk paano pa ko hahanap ng ganitong opportunity. diba ang gulo?? a part of me wants to rest kasi parang di pa ready i give up ang buhay for work and another part wants to push thru kasi ang taas ng offer compared to my batchmates. ang hirap magdecide. talked to my parents about this and they said na ako raw ang bahala. kung ano ang nararamdaman at desisyon ko. hindi naman daw nila ko pinepressure to work and provide for the family because they can do it. so i just have to decide for myself. if magbbackout daw ako, then dito muna ko sa bahay mamahinga. talagang tambay muna ahahaha kasi wala naman ako budget for side quest so tatambay lang talaga at mag iisip.

right now i dont know ano unang uunahin. im thinking kung ano ba talaga gusto ko. anong work yung sa tingin ko na mapapasaya ko at motivated akong papasukan. a work i know na i will enjoy. and also, a work na would still let me have life. is that possible? or am i too out of touch sa reality?

so hi im a fresh graduate and before graduation, sinubukan ko na maghanap ng trabaho. lahat ng mga classmates ko naghahanap na non and some are even working already kaya tinry ko rin. i did not know na matatanggap pala talaga ko. i finished the interview non and hr told me na ok na ko and they will send the job offer daw. but after ilang days, walang paramdam until they called me and asked me to go to the company. so i went thinking na they will discuss the job offer to me and the time i can start. kaso nagulat ako and sinabi na magstart na raw ako the next day and expect ko raw na yung salary is within the range ng expected salary ko (19-21k) and they will try daw to give the maximum. so as a fresh grad na nabigyan ng ganun opportunity, pumayag ako. i think 21k is high na for a fresh grad here provincial rate. so i was excited and pumayag ako at pumasok kinabukasan even without signing a contract yet. nilalakad pa kasi nila and they need someone to fill up the position na.

so ayun pumasok ako and tinuruan nung worker na aalis. tinurnover nya sakin yung work for a week. during the first day, super naoverwhelmed ako. i dont know paano iintindihin yung trabaho kasi ang daming information and jargons na di ko alam ang context. i would try to ask the employee na nagtuturo sakin but sinasabi nya na ganun daw talaga, masasanay din ako at maiintindihan ko kapag nagtagal. but i want to understand that now kasi paano ko sisimulan yung work without any idea and context. i wanted to quit agad sa first day but i did not. pumasok pa rin ako and every day lalo ako naooverwhelmed. i dont know paano ihahandle ang 5-6 different plants. as a fresh grad akala ko magaan muna but no, ang bigat agad na para bang tuwing papasok ako, nasosuffocate ako. so i talked to the manager na magbbackout na ko but they try to convinced me na wag muna at subukan ko. and they tried din na padaliin muna as much as possible. so i did kaso on my second week, ganun pa rin ang nafefeel ko. pakiramdam ko kaya ko yung trabaho and as time goes by, mamamaster ko talaga sya. but the problem is everytime pumapasok ako sa gate at naglalakad papuntang office, hindi ako makahinga. i feel really anxious and sad na 8-5 nanaman ako don. so now, i dont think the task is the problem kasi parang kaya ko naman e. pero why do i feel that way.

now, i think di talaga ko ready pa to work. i cant see myself na nabubuhay sa trabaho from 8-5 (+additional pa sa travel time) from monday to saturday. para kong sinasakal thinking of that. how i will live on that one day rest day. so i backout na talaga despite the 21k getting higher a bit. my mind and logic tell me to push thru it kasi san pa ko hahanap ng ganung kataas na offer nowadays. offers for fresh grad sa province ranges from 15-17k lang so its really a nice opportunity for me. but my heart naman tells me to stop muna. to rest for a while because i dont want to feel anxious again tuwing papasok. i want to be happy and notivated sa work, not anxious. i feel like this is a choice about calm/peace vs a high offer and im choosing peace. but di rin naman ako super peaceful now kasi idk paano pa ko hahanap ng ganitong opportunity. diba ang gulo?? a part of me wants to rest kasi parang di pa ready i give up ang buhay for work and another part wants to push thru kasi ang taas ng offer compared to my batchmates. ang hirap magdecide. talked to my parents about this and they said na ako raw ang bahala. kung ano ang nararamdaman at desisyon ko. hindi naman daw nila ko pinepressure to work and provide for the family because they can do it. so i just have to decide for myself. if magbbackout daw ako, then dito muna ko sa bahay mamahinga. talagang tambay muna ahahaha kasi wala naman ako budget for side quest so tatambay lang talaga at mag iisip.

right now i dont know ano unang uunahin. im thinking kung ano ba talaga gusto ko. anong work yung sa tingin ko na mapapasaya ko at motivated akong papasukan. a work i know na i will enjoy. and also, a work na would still let me have life. is that possible? or am i too out of touch sa reality?

hii just wanna ask if 20-22k monthly salary is good as a fresh grad? it's a manufacturing company located in bulacan and i want to know if 20-22k is worth it for a Mon-Sat onsite setup in a manuf. thank youu!