I lost my soulmate and im devasted
Arthur was with me for 9 years only he was diagnotized at 7 with heart disease and was on meds all that time, he did well until last winter when his breathing became difficult, the vet added meds which did not help ,he had no fluid in lungs and never had but his heart became very big and thats what was believed to compress his lungs, i been to cardiologist which new treatment did not work eiter, his cough was so bad that he had difficult to sleep ...
After searching online i found about aerodwag inhaler with seretide i tried it and after few days he got better and cough dissapeared by 80% .... But little more than 1 month latter it came back again stronger that the only thing that could help him was when i carry him against me in a sit like position to help him breath. One night his cough was so bad that he collapsed on the floor and he got back after a while in my arms , few days latter i had to go in er because he could not lay down without coughing at each expiration , he used hid tummy to expire the air each time ,they gave him a morphasol injection and he stopped cough for 24hrs with also being very sedated , then after the cough was back and i again been to a cardiologist who did not help much and gave another antibiotic , 9 days latter his tummy was big because i think when he eat and drink he shallow air , he was gasping for air streching his neck , i been outside with him carry him around and letting him walk so he could poo hoping he would get better but when i back nothing changed , his breathing was still bad and he could not lay down , i decided to go in er and i told them that the morphasol helped him last time , they did the injection i asked the minimum dosage as always and 20 minute latter the vet came back to check him with his stéthoscope, when he finished Arthur breath got worse that we had to give him oxygen but that did not help , they said at this point its was better to euthanasia him and i cried i called my mother because i need mental support , we decide to let him go i stopped cry while they did the injection talking in his ear to try to calm him , then the vet said " he gone " i cried all the tears of my body , i keep regreting go to the er because the injection and vet stressed him that is surely worsen the situation until its was too much , i regret so much maybe if i had hold him at home longer its would have get better , i miss him so much he was only 9years old its way too young for a chihuahua, i just keep crying and not moving out my bed since sunday i dont have reason to live anymore i want be gone too i want to be where he is , i miss his smell , i miss hear him coming sleep at night in my bed , i miss touching him , i miss his beautiful inocent eyes , i wish i could see him again, i wish i could know if i could ever be with him again 😢