Advice needed🙏 bipolar vs bpd diagnosis
Hey everyone, I’m 18F and currently stuck in a really frustrating diagnostic process between BPD and bipolar disorder. I’d really appreciate hearing from anyone who’s experienced something similar.
I was diagnosed with ADHD last year and did well on dexamphetamine. This year I started uni, was sleeping only \~4 hours/night for about 6 weeks, became very depressed around exams, then impulsively spent \~$3,000 on a trip to Melbourne. After my exams were deferred, my depression suddenly disappeared.
Soon after, I stayed awake for \~90 hours without feeling tired, walking 30-40k steps a night. My psychologist sent me to the ER, and I was admitted to a psych ward with suspected hypomania. However, I was discharged after 5 days with a diagnosis of “personality disturbances” instead. My ADHD medication was stopped.
After discharge I stayed awake another 48 hours, became extremely agitated with racing thoughts, repeatedly called the ward overnight, and threatened my psychiatrist. (Reflecting yes I was a bit dramatic) Since then I’ve had huge mood swings, impulsively gone to Melbourne again and spent thousands, become obsessed with researching psychiatry, and had a violent fight with my parents.
My private psychiatrist thinks it’s BPD with potential bipolar but said he was unsure I was having a hypomanic episode because I had “too much insight.”
I honestly don’t care whether it’s BPD or bipolar anymore—I just want someone to figure out what’s going on because I’m exhausted from all this and feel like I’m not being taken seriously.