u/Still-Succotash-8740

hello, well aware that this sounds very unusual so i can post proof if needed (id prefer not to though im already rly insecure 💔) im 19f, 4’11 and 385lbs (although admittedly i think im closer to 400 :/). i have a binge eating disorder and ive struggled with it since i was 8 years old

other than that im currently at college studying art education but im planning on dropping out rip. tbh i feel this ama will be quite boring as my life is not very exciting but feel free to ask anything. i mostly just read fanfics tbh. this acc is mostly a throwaway for weight related things so i dont mind getting personal though :) pls just no weird dms!

hello. i’m 19f, 4’11 and 385lbs (although admittedly that number is quite outdated and i think i might be closer to 400lbs. i can check my weight if it affects this post but i dont think it will). i think this is the right place to post but pls let me know if not, im really struggling to find anyone online talking about this specific issue

recently ive been having some problems walking and its been a lot harder for me to climb stairs or get around anywhere. im just so much more tired and its a lot harder to move my legs, i usually have to waddle instead but its rly embarrassing and i dont end up going anywhere bc of it. im also having more difficulty breathing but idk if thats related. i think a lot of this is caused by my fat distribution. it mainly goes to my stomach and i have a large stomach overhang, i dont want to send pics but it goes quite far down in my legs. definitely up to mid thighs. ive gained a lot of weight recently and i think its probably gotten a lot worse because of that and im really struggling to cope with the physical changes. how can i reduce them and manage this on my own?

sorry this section migjt be tmi dont feel like u have to read it lol but i rly need help. in addition im really struggling to clean it and the area underneath my stomach keeps getting really itchy and sore. i just cant reach (rly short arms) and clean/dry it properly but its really red and irritated right now and its starting to smell quite weird. does anyone know how to help me with this? i try to clean it as best i can but im in a college dorm and i already spend quite a lot of time in the shower (ive had complaints about it 😭) so i can‘t dedicate any specific time to it :/

thank you for the help ❤️ if there is anymore info that i need to add or questions that i need to answer etc please let me know but i think i covered everything. im really struggling mentally atm and trying to work up the courage to see a doctor because of that so any tips that i can work on by myself would be fantastic tysm

sorry tw for weight, i saw that this sub said not to rly discuss it. sorry this post is really negative i just need to vent so bad im honestly crying my eyes out and hyperventilating while typing this

eaten 2 fucking walmart cakes meant for 10 people each and im still eating as i type this. my lack of self control is actually starting to become funny. idk what to do anymore. i dont feel like getting better bc i rely on food so much but at the same time it is making me so miserable and im undoubtably the most unhappy i have ever been right now. going to college was the worst decision of my life, everyone is so slim here and its insanely triggering so its made me binge so much more in an attempt to feel better lol but ofc ive just gained so much weight. im 19f and i weigh >!385lbs!< and i dont even care atp lol thats the worst part i just can’t stop. i hate my body so much i dont even recognise myself anymore. i keep throwing up unintentionally bc my stomach can’t take the amount im eating. yet at the same time i love the taste of food too much to stop. not to mention i have the worst fat distribution known to man i have an awful stomach overhang and its lowkey making walking difficult 😍 i cant find anyone online having the same problem so now im just in a lot of pain every time i walk

my roommate and her friends walked in on me eating a big ass cake with my hands once and now they think im a freak and give me awful looks. they wont even talk to me anymore. by some incredible stroke of luck im also living with all of these people next year 😍 genuinely considering dropping out next year because of this and because i can barely stand to be in public rn ❤️ ive had so many awful encounters at college idk wjat to do i broke a chair a few months ago and people around me laughed. god sorry this is so long and so negative but im lowkey hopeless and ive never told anyone any of this #lol. actually begging for help atp

edit: if anyone has any advice pls lmk even if its just rly small tips bc im honestly at my breaking point <3