u/Strawberry_berry_boy

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This semester, I've been doing really good. Like reallly good with my classes, i found a way to study that works well with me. Ive been passing. Welp i missed one paper for my pysch class in march

The assignment closed before i could submit it. No biggie. I get As on all the other assignments. I passed the multiple choice final with a 95 and the written with a 100. My grades at 91% whaaaat i have an A!!

Nope think again! The prof messages me at 7:30 pm that i have till 12pm next day to turn in.

Fuck okay im at work dont get home till around 10pm. Thats fine. Ill just finish the paper i had been working on before it closed. Right?

WRONG. The files gone. 3 1/2 pages gone. I need 5 pages..its a reseach paper . I ask for an extension till midnight. Nope she gives me till 3pm. Tells me to turn in what i can

Okay....fine. its 10pm. I still have to make dinner . But i do what i can till midnight. I have to be at work at 11 am. It takes me 2 hrs to get there from home. Okay fine i work while traveling. I take an early lunch. I finished what i could. I ended up with less than 2 pages for a 5pg research paper. I turned that in while tears were in my eyes

Ha even worse....its worth 25% my 91 quickly plummets 68.

......

Im so disappointed in myself. And u cant get anything less than a b in all ur science courses to get into the program. Im so exhausted lmao.

Thank u for coming to my ted talk.

Edit : im not actually going to quit. I am just frustrated with myself, tho. Next semster i will do better

This semester, I've been doing really good. Like reallly good with my classes, i found a way to study that works well with me. Ive been passing. Welp i missed one paper for my pysch class in march

The assignment closed before i could submit it. No biggie. I get As on all the other assignments. I passed the multiple choice final with a 95 and the written with a 100. My grades at 91% whaaaat i have an A!!

Nope think again! The prof messages me at 7:30 pm that i have till 12pm next day to turn in.

Fuck okay im at work dont get home till around 10pm. Thats fine. Ill just finish the paper i had been working on before it closed. Right?

WRONG. The files gone. 3 1/2 pages gone. I need 5 pages..its a reseach paper . I ask for an extension till midnight. Nope she gives me till 3pm. Tells me to turn in what i can

Okay....fine. its 10pm. I still have to make dinner . But i do what i can till midnight. I have to be at work at 11 am. It takes me 2 hrs to get there from home. Okay fine i work while traveling. I take an early lunch. I finished what i could. I ended up with less than 2 pages for a 5pg research paper. I turned that in while tears were in my eyes

Ha even worse....its worth 25% my 91 quickly plummets 68.

......

Im so disappointed in myself. And u cant get anything less than a b in all ur science courses to get into the program. Im so exhausted lmao.

Thank u for coming to my ted talk.

Im sick of the feeling of doom, im sick of whatever is causing it to be the only thing i can think about. Im sick of the back to back panic attacks. Something as small as" if i fed my cat" sends me into a spiral. Im sick of picking my nail beds. I hate the way it feels like something is always sitting on my chest and pushing down. It gets worse if what's causing it is out of my control. I can't focus. I can't breathe. I can't think

Im not always anxious

But when i am, it is so painful and frustrating, and it just gets in the way.

It's ruined happy moments, and im just over it.

So my shot frequency went from once a week to every 3 days ( per request), so im on amazon looking for needles. Ive seen some guys say a 27g is easier. ( It's T cyponate if that matters)