u/StrayCat_UnderMoon

I used to enjoy coming onto university campus. I enjoyed appreciating the architectural beauty of the buildings and I am studying what I am passionate about (psychology). However, my life took a turn over the course of the last month where I became attached to a student I met on campus. Our relationship became increasingly toxic, and then abusive. I have blocked him across all social medias now, but now when I walk through campus, I am going to remember meeting him here or talking with him there, and it disturbs me. It makes me very upset, and the entire atmosphere at campus has become tainted for me now

I wish I was able to forget about someone for even a couple of hours, but I can't - and it kills me inside. If I send someone a text, I'm repeatedly checking my phone until they respond. If my sister wants to hang out with her friends, I feel a pang of jealousy in my chest, even though I know it is irrational. Sometimes I feel so lonely even when I do have a support network around me, that I fantasise about binge-drinking (something I routinely struggle with). It is an awful feeling, and I wish I could stop feeling so clingy and needy