u/StrongArtichoke8178

M35 I feel remorseful for deleting pictures from my socials of my ex. It was a relationship that lasted about a year. We knew there’d be an expiration date for us since she F30 wanted kids and I didn’t. I’ll explain some things why I feel so remorseful. I dislike it how society tells us to remove pictures of our exs especially when the relationship was good and we never cheated on each other or were abusive to one another.

At first when we were talking she didn’t wanna have them in this kind of world so I thought she didn’t want them. So I assumed a month into dating we really liked each other but she told me she wanted to have kids and I was set on not having them. We agreed down the road we’d break up no hard feelings.

But anyways we had a great relationship because I was her first boyfriend and I loved her and she loved me. She was my first girlfriend where she was a short drive for me because I had 2 previous long distance relationships and they were both close 5 feet. The one I’m currently talking about and most recent one was 5’11 and I’m 6’2.

I helped motivate her get through nursing school even though she flunked her final exam. She supported me when my rowing team moved to a different boathouse and I wanted to stay put because the other boat club didn’t offer what I wanted. I taught her so much about my lifestyle rowing I was always happy when she asked questions about it. I liked cooking for her and I loved it when she cooked for me or get me breakfast food so I’d have energy for my rowing practices. The sex was the best I ever had despite have a ED problem since I have AuDHD but I always showed that I loved her. She had undiagnosed ADHD and sometimes we fought over stupid shit. I was her first boyfriend she did roadtrips with and I loved it when we did it. Especially when we went on spontaneous dates and hangouts, even though sometimes we’d flake on each other.

So we had a lot of selfies and posts of us being in love and we loved it. But when we broke up and decided to end it I made a knee jerk reaction and deleted everything. I have AuDHD and made this mistakes prematurely. She didn’t delete this one profile picture she has of us and sometimes I look at it when I’m bored and sad. I do have a photo album I saved with Google Photos of us so I can still remember the memories.

Few months after the break up I printed out my favorite memories of us. So one thing I always liked about her she had physical photos all over her place of memories and such. So I wrote her a letter saying I felt really bad deleting all of our photos from my socials but wanted to give her physical copies of our photos and tell her I had a really great relationship and time with her. Then dropped it off at her house in her mailbox.

We did text previously between the break up and me dropping photos at her place but it was over clothes we got for each other and who wanted to keep what. But I haven’t heard from her since and it’s been 5 months since I dropped it off. I did move on and realize I won’t get her back, and I don’t want her back.

I hope someday we see each other at the grocery store and talk like adults and catch up. During the relationship we ran into each other a few times at this grocery store near my apartment since she lived in the city and no grocery stores were close to her except the one right by me. But I just hope someday I get closer from her or we could be friends somehow.

But I’m happy with no regrets I sent her pictures of us to know she’ll always be in my heart. She has her reasons why she hasn’t responded and it’s ok. Even though she wasn’t the one I had the best time with her. Currently in therapy now to get through the steps to think about her less and less.

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Needing a career change and I wanna go for an overnight forklift job as I have previous experience with one. I prematurely applied for overnight forklift job before I got forklift certified. (I like overnights more than day shifts) Cancelled the interview the day before because I didn’t have one. Now I am forklift certified. Now I applied a week ago and got “no longer under consideration”

Should I keep applying or after a few weeks reapply?

Or given the crazy work environment given reviews on indeed I’m saving myself some heartache.

Thanks

I got transferred to a 24/7 bank back office after working at a bank for 2.5 years. After clashing with a teller who thought it was alright to yell at me when responding to an emergency. Like I responded to all the stuff in a timely fashion but it wasn’t enough for this teller who wasn’t the manager. One day I tried to confront her about it but she denied it and said she was helping me. (She really wasn’t) A banker and a business manager helped me get transferred after this bad incident I had.

Got transferred to a 24/7 site with the highest turnover rate with the most rules! (I knew I was going to quit this job or get fired) I got put on a 3rd schedule that wasn’t to my liking. Working the whole weekend when most of my non work life is during the weekend. (Rowing regattas) But know the schedule was a take it or leave it deal so of course I took it.

Got fired because they caught me on the phone during my shift. There wasn’t much to do after my reports and rounds were done. Also had a complaint about something I wasn’t used to working (pro watch) since I spent a majority of the time not on it since the acting manager didn’t set up the full account for me to do the app on my computer but only the generic one.

But glad I got fired I didn’t like the schedule they put me on and the rules were just too much! There are companies in my city that would likely have a better schedule and better rules. Overnights I can get doing rounds and reports but the phone thing was just annoying. I’m not going to stare at a wall for 8 hours when not doing rounds and reports and all. But happy Im moving on and applied to other places when I got the schedule.

Backstory how/where I got fired: was working at HQ for an outside detail for some OT (4 hour shift) one of my big bosses came to me outside and said her and a couple of my other big bosses said they’d like to meet with me. I knew it wasn’t going to be good. Met with them and tried explaining my reason but wasn’t good enough and they said they’d terminate me.

Im not going to justify me being on the phone and I know thats a big thing (I have AuDHD so when I’m bored I’m on my phone) with the company aside from sleeping on post or abandoning post. I remember back when I did overnights for allied Barton I was encouraged to watch stuff on the computer as long as the rounds and reports were done. Glad I’m moving on especially glad I don’t have to do anymore radio checks every hour on the hour!

Here’s to a better job and hopefully a better schedule! I’ve been on and off with allied for years so maybe someday they will hire me back.