How to change my habits?
Lately I feel I do most of nothing all day. I make myself walk the dog. I cook a little. I stretch and I go outside and sit in the sun… but I often reach for my phone or the TV.
I get obsessed with things easily. I call it an addictive personality. My therapist told me without me asking that I have ADHD. I already know I have OCD from a previous diagnosis. I don’t like these boxes and I think they can confine me into staying that way. I think I can change or at least use it for my own good. I’ve gotten addicted to things in the past and the only thing that seemed to help was complete removal. I’d rather not have to do that with everything I deem more bad than good. I was obsessed with US politics when I was young. I moved abroad. I was no longer around constant US politics. Moved back to the US and no longer care for it. I barely keep up with it and when I rarely do look into something I’m not SO emotionally invested. I used to drink a lot. I quit for 6 months many years ago. It quickly turned into a year. I got into it again due to the social circles at work, and again quit and it’s been a couple years and I have more control now. I’ll have a drink every few months or so. I am addicted to screens. Phone and Tv. Nothing but extreme things help. I had a flip phone for 6 months. It helped a lot. But it’s unsustainable. I had no TV for a bit. It was nice. But I live alone, I need a TV sometimes.
I’ve also used this for good before. I got obsessed with my finances and became really financially well versed. I got obsessed with traveling and finding little spots no one knew about, had some incredible experiences. I got obsessed with dog training, I now have a well trained dog. Years ago, I got obsessed with exercising, I became very fit. I let it go due to a relationship and got injured at work. But now that old knowledge is helping me heal my body. I also got way too invested in that relationship obviously if I dropped a big hobby of mine for it. We dated for years and I wouldn’t say I was obsessed with him but overly invested for sure.
So how do I start using this addictive quality of mine for more good than bad? Anyone else have similar experience?
How do I change my habits and be more productive?
I live alone, I just have my dog, I’m healing from a spine injury, I am trying to move abroad and sell my house but I want better habits going forward
**medication is not an option. It goes against my beliefs.