Pattern by our very own u/stephanieoutside!
I took her amazing mosaic crochet pattern & made it into a double sided tote for my MIL. Lined with gray felt, strap is simple Tunisian stitch.
Used Premiere Afternoon Cotton Light & a 3.75mm hook for bag, some fine Hobbii Rainbow Cotton & a 3.5mm hook for the strap.
Great pattern & I know MIL will love when gifted to her soon.
Found 3 cats on my year 2 swampy boi this AM. While we were looking at all the bugs & plants in my garden, mama monarch came flying in & was scouting the plants for a good place to drop eggs. My partner actually got weepy bc he was so thrilled.
Saw this beauty yesterday & when I checked the garden this AM I noticed so many little nests with cats in them! They weren't kidding saying pussytoes are a host plant. At least a dozen nests in my 3 relatively little patches 🥰 I know they're a common butterfly in US, but it's still thrilling to see my plants doing their jobs to help 💜
We lost both recently, 7 weeks apart. My heart is broken but I'm glad Tiny didn't have to live long without her big brother. They were inseparable. Leonard loved her from the moment they met, when he was 5 & she was a baby.
Hello. Lost my guy 7 weeks ago & just lost his baby sister on Wed (CHF) so have a ton of supplies on offer.
* 2 bags Ringers
* 3 giving sets
* 74 ct Terumo 20G needles
* a couple Forti-Flora packs
* Almost full bottle AminAvast
* unopened Phos-Bind
* 1/2-1/3 tube Mirataz
* almost full RenaPlus potassium
* compounded Ondanestron liquid (very concentrated - tiny dose)
* Compounded transdermal Cerenia (maybe 20 doses?)
* Almost full box Porus One
* Telmisartan quad tabs
* huge amount of Amlodipine pills (100+)
* 30+ Cerenia tabs
* full 85 CT unopened bag of Greenies pill pockets
* unopened hand-feeding syringes
If one or two people can take all/most things I'd love it. I'm deep in grief right now & my ability to keep track of complicated things is low.
First come, first served. Comment here to claim & I'll DM my address for pickup.
Hello. I'm so sorry for everyone who is here, going through such uniquely horrible pain. The grief is overwhelming & I'm sorry for all your losses 💔
My (nearly) 15 yr old void, Leonard, battled CKD for 21 months. He was doing really well & then his kidney numbers started tanking. Even with daily sub q, all the appropriate drugs for nausea & appetite, supplements to help with toxins, & aggressive monitoring he slid into Stage 4. Even with good IV drugs + IV fluids he had no improvement. He stopped wanting to eat, was breathing harder, didn't want to be held bc he felt bad. He was my velcro cat who wanted to climb into my skin & he didn't want to be held any more those last few days. That broke me. He had one day of zero food, not even his favorites, and we called it & let him rest.
7 weeks & 2 days later, I lost my other cat. Tiny was 10 & diagnosed with CHF in early March. She was doing so well; we pulled her out of active failure & she was on the gold standard drugs from her cardiologist. Her respiratory rate was good, she played a lot, ate, hung out with us & seemed really stable. She started breathing too fast & shallowly on Tues night around 11 pm. We rushed her to the e-vet & she had fluid in her lungs again plus a bit in her chest.
Even after 3+ hrs in oxygen at the highest concentration + 2 or 3 shots of Lasix, her breathing was labored. She was getting worse instead of better & a death from CHF is often very traumatic. We decided around 3 AM Wed to help her go. There was a good chance we couldn't get her out of active failure & we knew we'd be right back here in weeks to months, but maybe in a worse state (her gasping, throwing a clot, in extreme distress).
She was just here & now she's gone. He was just here.
I hadn't begun to get over Leonard & then we lose Tiny, too. The grief is consuming me. I'm blaming myself for not being able to fix them, even though I know CKD & CHF cannot be fixed. I'm just replaying everything & finding all the things I could have done better. My vets & friends & partner all say I did everything right. No one is blaming me. But I feel such intense guilt & I hate that I wasn't able to keep them stable longer.
My whole life revolved around them. I keep looking at the time bc I had a heavy schedule of meds/supplements for them. It's 8 AM, oh wait they're gone. It's 3 PM, oh that's right. Gone. 8 PM, no one needs me now. Bedtime, no meds - go to bed without them. Feel the empty space at my feet. Cry.
I'm in an empty, catless house and still see them everywhere I look.
I haven't ever felt grief this big. I feel like I can't breathe. I'm a caregiver at a chicken sanctuary, & have lost so many bird friends, too.
The cumulative grief is a weight in my heart. I'm just so sincerely not ok. I don't know how to be ok again. My life feels like all I do is love them & lose them. Over & over & over...
Thank you for reading. Sorry so long. I'm just so broken.
My family got so small, so quickly 💔