u/Sudden-Passion-9858

Life isn't fair. Others have things that you may have to work harder for. But this is how you should look at it: your conscious experience is the only reality that exists, since it's the only reality that you experience. And in your life (the only reality), you may have to put a lot of effort into achieving your dreams. Now, don't be discouraged when you see someone born into the life that you want, because now you know the only reality that exists is one where you have to do certain things to get what you want.

Every week I something happens where I get extremely sad and angry at the world. And the emotions just over ride me to the point where my desires completely change and I don’t want anything but to lay down and do nothing all day. I forget about my dreams, my desires and my manifestations. I don’t even care to presit and manifest.

When I’m not emotional acting as if I have everything I want feels natural. But when I’m feeling angry or depressed, it feels like I’m forcing it or like it’s a chore.

Is it normal to constantly be let down?

Everyday someone makes a promise or a plan and it never happens.

Let me just talk about today

Starts of with my friend telling me he is going to give me something when we go drop him home (won’t say what) I was grateful and excited. We get to his house and he comes up with a dumb excuse saying he can’t get it anymore.

I was supposed to hangout with some girls later in the day with some more friends, coincidentally the girl who I was supposed to be with wasn’t going to make it for some reason.

Then I go to my other friends house, we where there with a few other people. They had to leave, but my friend tells me I should stay longer with him. Right after I agree, he tells me he is busy and I can’t stay longer.

So I head home. He ends up texting me later and says he can pick me up to go to the store and get something when he is done with whatever he was doing. I agree. He ends up never texting me and I see his location with other friends.

I don’t even care that I’m being left out or anything like that. What I care about is people keep getting my hopes up just to let me down, over and over again, day in and day out. EVERY DAY.

In business, with friendships. Is it me? Am I being messed with? Do I need to learn a lesson not to trust anyone’s word? Even my friends and people I pay to be reliable? Wtf

And it’s not like I’m the one reaching out. THERE REACHING OUT TO ME.

I’ve heard “sorry there’s no more room for you” for 3 camping trips this past month and a half after being invited to the group chats. I’m tired and I don’t like anyone.

I’ve been playing around with manifestation and seeing what works for me.

I’ve recently tried manifesting the hottest girl in my school. I am naturally detached from her since I didn’t believe I had a chance with her. Is it possible that me not truly desiring her can cause resistance?

And id also like to say that this experiment is pretty interesting so far. Before I tried to manifest her, I was trying to manifest a girl I had a crush on. I kinda lost hope in her because I’ve been trying for a while. And now that I’m trying to manifest this other girl, the girl I was crushing on has been texting me. Is there any explanation for this?

I thought I vividly remembered something, then I tried describing it but couldn’t get the details I was imagining.

Let’s look at things on a logical level.

We are animals. Our goal is to survive. Consciousness helps us survive, that’s why we are conscious.

Believing that there is life after our existence feels good and helps us cope.

But consciousness is just as helpful as any other body part. When you die, your body turns to dust and it’s no longer a body. Consciousness should work the same way because it’s a part of our body.

This means that this life is the only life you will ever live, and ever lived.

Then again it really doesn’t matter because our brain is what stores memories. If you had a life before or after, you wouldn’t remember.

I really don’t want to believe this, but it’s what makes most sense.

At the end of the day, we will never know.

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