u/Sufficient-Reveal132

sorry bad words can't do good words at now. partner not understand shutdowns and just make worse. be mean to me demand me listen stop me stimming pull on me demand look at them and talk to them. partner not understand i'm not do on purpose. not ignore them not choose this and not able control self. can't move can't talk can't respond. told them before and sent stuff to read but they h still do bad an mean. make me scared feel alone not trust them. no one to help me. wish partner listen bette r

partner and i really really need to move to our own apartment as soon as possible. their income isn't enough for us. they and our therapists want me to get a job. but i don't even know if i can get a job. i can't do hygiene by myself. i can't do phone calls. i can't go anywhere by myself. i can't get ready to go somewhere without a lot of buffering and reminders. i can't remember to take my meds. i struggle to make food for myself. i have a lot of sensory problems and get overstimulated really easily. i have frequent verbal shutdowns and can't speak to strangers 95% of the time. i have literally no social skills (2nd percentile in my assessment). and that's not even including any physical disability stuff.

is it even possible for me to get and keep a job? i don't see how i'll ever be able to do that, especially not in the time frame we need. and my partner says they're scared i'll never be able to get a job and be independent and take care of myself. i don't want that to be true but i just don't know how i'm going to have a job when i literally can't even take care of myself. and if i don't get a job we can't move out and we desperately need to. i don't know what to do.