16M and Completely Confused About My Gender Identity I Really Need Advice
I am a 16-year-old boy, and I'm really confused. Ever since I was a child, I've been feminine. In kindergarten, I used to wear the princess dresses that were there, and for many years I've been called "gay" for being a bit feminine.
When I turned 13, I tried on my sister's dresses in secret when she and my parents weren't home. I still wear her clothes sometimes when no one is home. But I don't know if I want to transition.
There are many reasons why I'm unsure. I'm scared of losing my fertility because I'm still young and want kids when I'm older, but I also want to have a feminine body. That contradicts some of my other feelings.
I also want to take steroids. I want to be big, strong, and manly. I want to experience having a girlfriend in a male-female relationship, but it's all too confusing.
I can't talk to anybody about this, not even my parents. They're really religious, and I don't feel like I can be honest with them.
I'm just stuck in a dilemma. I don't know if I want to take the chance and become a girl or keep being a boy, get big, have a girlfriend, and live that kind of life. I feel like I'm being pulled in two completely different directions, and I don't know what I really want.
I really need your guys' thoughts on what I should do. Any advice would mean a lot to me.