First time posting here, longtime r/CA contributor
Well unfortunately life needs to happen soon, and the drinking needs to be cut down drastically. I’ve been drinking about a fifth a day for about a year, however since I have been BARELY eating for the past week, 2 nights ago I got the onset of DT’s after not drinking enough (combined with also not getting any calories besides vodka for a week). After shaking so bad I barely could open my phone I called someone, just anyone, but mainly my grandma (understands my situation.) I very quickly pour up a massive glass of my usual vodka and barely limp over put my lips to the glass and do little sips to get it down to the point where it won’t go everywhere when I try to pick it up with my 2 shaky hands. Even then the anxiety was through the roof thankfully my grandma god forbid she stayed on call and was able to come home and so I’d have someone there for me
Gma is the only one I trust being there and she’ll comfort me and gets it. I get extremely scared being alone, I don’t have a car and where I live the hospitals are like 30 mins away, so ambulance usually takes even longer, and when you’re about to go into DTs if you ever got them you know, you will be dead if not you will have a grand-mal seizure 100%.
It’s hard having to clamp your grandmas hand with the feeling like you’re gonna die and have to lie down next to her. Anyways that night I got some more into me every now and then with some bread (WHICH HELPS A LOT) and then and started feeling a little better
Barely got 30 mins or so of sleep but at least I did.
Morning, felt a lot better after getting some bread into me throughout the day, only had to drink a little less than a quarter of the fifth that was left from last night, and when that quarter was out, I slowly sipped a very high % seltzer throughout the day. Bought a backup fifth THAT I WILL AND HAVE NOT TOUCHED Unless I absolutely have to.
Now sitting here 3:30am ate 2 bites of pasta which brought my appetite back had nice small chicken pot pie too. No shakes or WD’s and seltzer was finished hours ago. Hoping to aim for a nice breakfast, and manage to use this backup only for necessity tomorrow.
Damn this is long. Just wanted to document for myself, rather share. As well as what I drank to keep the taper accurate. Damn it feels weird not ending with chairs!
IWNDWYTN is the thing here I think?