u/Suspicious-Horse4093

It looks surrealistic but my friend was arguing with his mom over something I don't remember (he's a bit irritable) and then I repeated some words of him because I often process words I hear by repeating them as a stim to relax myself which is known as echolalia, after that he threw me his jacket at my face yelling "are you mocking me?!" and we argued for several minutes.

This is the kind of times where I just sigh and realize that autism isn't a superpower and wish I had a normal brain.

Hello. I'm a beginner writer looking for a writing partner for a story project I've been developing for a long time. The story is a mix of psychological drama, mystery, intense conflict and themes about redemption and whether someone who became a "monster" can truly change.

The setting is grounded and human despite having exaggerated fighters. I want the fights to feel emotional and brutal rather than just flashy power scaling.

I write every day to improve and I already have a lot of scenes, character concepts, and long-term plans for the story. I'm mainly looking for someone creative who enjoys writing characters and worldbuilding.

You don't need to be professional. I offer co-author credit, or even if you're much more skilled than me and you're really interested in the idea, I could consider paying you money and a percentage of future profits. I understand that nobody wants to write your ideas so I try to be as realistic as possible.

If you are interested, feel free to dm me. If I don't get anyone from here there's no helping then, I can keep going by myself.

It's always the same, I try to comfort or help someone and give a straightforward idea and they get mad at me. I know how you phrase your sentences affects how the other person will take it but I can't, I really struggle so hard just to form thoughts into words due to this foggy feeling whenever I try to speak. I hate how my only way of communicating is by always speaking bluntly, I wish I could adapt or at least say things in a more charismatic way.

I've seen some people say this forum can feel very negative. I get where that comes from, but at the same time, I don't think it's fair to expect otherwise. A lot of people come here because they're struggling, and this might be one of the few places where they can actually be honest about it and get more feedback to know themselves.

So if you're having a hard time, I think it's okay to vent. You're not making the space "worse" by simply talking about your experience.

At the same time, I just wanted to add something small. I hope things get a little easier for all of us. Even if it's not a big change, even if it's just getting through the day.

Take care 😊.

If I had to describe my life so far, I'd say it’s been gray not because something terrible was always happening, but because nothing ever really felt alive. I never felt like I truly fit in. In every group, I was the last option. When classes ended, people moved on with their lives, and I was never part of what came next.

In my country everyone likes football or soccer if you're american. I tried entering there so I could be respected if I was good playing but in every team I've played I was always the sub that never entered to the pitch.

I've always struggled socially. It's hard for me to show emotion, to engage naturally and make people interested in getting to know me. After a while, I started to wonder if I'm just not someone worth noticing.

For the past year, after leaving university, I've been completely alone. Just repeating the same days, staying inside, avoiding the world and everything that comes with it.

But even so, I don't want this to be the end of my story.

If anyone reading this feels the same way, I know how much it hurts to miss out experiences that life has to offer and feel like you're a background character in a world that doesn't even bother looking at you.

I hope one day you find a place where you're not just tolerated, but genuinely wanted. A place where your presence matters, where you'd be missed if you were gone. And I hope you build the kind of life that makes you proud of yourself.

As for me, I'm not giving up.
Even if it takes years, even if no one else cares, I want to reach a point where I can look back and say that I tried and mean it.

That will be enough.