u/Suspicious-Limit-566

Hello guys, I'm 20 GNEF. I gave CAT 2025 with more than a year whole preparation. Still couldn't score well. My scores in mocks never improved despite trying so much. Also, last year I was preparing with college but now I've just graduated. I started preparing again for CAT 2026. But still my mock scores are somewhere around 35-50. I've been doing everything I could. I've been doing this shit for almost 1.5 years now. This is stressing me so f much. You might say that I've time, but I don't. My father is already retired and I'm a single child as well. My parents don't pressurize me but there's still some unsaid pressure. I'm giving everything to it. I don't sleep, don't eat much and just keep studying all the time. My biggest fear is that what if my mock scores improve but still I get anxious like the previous time in the exam hall and mess it all up. While giving CAT 2025, I got so f anxious that I couldn't even understand a single RC line. By the time I started to understand it, a lot of time had gone. I need to anyhow land in a good college next year. I don't know what to do. Any suggestions? Does it happens with anyone else as well?

I've only taken CL's test series. Saw couple of her video solutions. She teaches really well that's I wanna know about who she is.

My mom stitched this outfit from scratch. Undoubtedly, she's my favourite designer and stitches anything I ask her to. She's made a lot of outfits for me and I love all of them. But this one's my favourite.🥹🎀

Pata hai aaj kya hua

Actually kal hua. I am a classical vocal student learning from past 15 years. I have got to learn from different gurujis.

But this guruji, I started learning from him 4 years back. And he's such a rare gem. He has vast vast subject knowledge and he's a really really good and kind person as well. So I'm leaving my hometown where I've been brought up. I'm shifting along with my family. So yesterday was the last class with him. I was so upset and my heart was so heavy. I even started crying while leaving in front of him. But while leaving, he gifted me this pair of payal. Usually, I don't wear payal or I actually hate them in general. I've never wore one since childhood even when my mum used to force me to wear it. I'd always remove it.

But this time the payal he gifted me, this is so wholesome. I couldn't even sleep the whole night just on the thought of leaving him and feeling the payal in my ankles. I've never had such huge respect for any guru as his. I've respect for all of them but not like him. He's such a man. And now I've to leave him😭. It is just hurting so much from yesterday night. I'm so so happy that I'm not even going to remove it any soon.

Yesterday he was praising me so much for like the improvement I made in the last 4 years that too with college and all. He never praised me or only did a little in 4 years. But yesterday he showed so much confidence in me that I can do anything. If anyone learns music, or even in general, you might know how good it feels when your guru shows confidence in you. I was so overwhelmed. I'm still overwhelmed. Couldn't think of anything other than that. But the good thing is that he has agreed to teach me online so no guru hunting in the new city. I hope everyone gets a teacher like him.😭

Also, the next picture is of what I gifted him while leaving (I'm not good at art though. It was my first time painting a canvas so don't judge.) He loved it and made me stick the canvas into his music room.🥹 Bhai payal ki picture pta nhi kyu second no pe upload ho rhi hai toh thoda idhr udhr krke dekh lena.🫠