u/TanAstronomer

I've been reading a lot of sad, downtrodden books lately and while they are deep and great, I'd like a break.

Give me your best champagne problem reads.
Characters whose biggest crisis is a messy love triangle, a dramatic family dinner, or which yacht to summer on. Low stakes, high drama, everyone’s basically going to be fine.

I just want to sip something bubbly and read about people being a little ridiculous. Any genre welcome!

I did the Gateway tapes over a year ago, got to around Tape 4, and then drifted away from them. Today I felt really pulled back to them, asked for a sign, and then randomly came across a thread on here about someone who stopped for a long time, came back, picked up where they left off, and had a vivid experience. The comments all said you don’t have to start over, just go back in. So I took that as my sign and did Tape 4.

But I keep hitting this pattern and want to know if anyone else deals with this. I go in conscious, follow along, and then just... click out. I completely lose the middle. I know I'm not falling asleep because when it ends I snap back instantly.

I used to think this was a "block," but I wake up feeling insanely refreshed, clear, and like my overthinking brain finally shut up. (Same thing happened to me at a guided Bashar meditation once where we were guided to enter a ship, I remember entering and then I clicked out. Then at the end of the meditation I regained my consciousness and "woke up" feeling amazing). Blocks usually leave you frustrated, but this feels healing.

My working theories right now:

1. The click-out IS the access. My verbal brain just goes offline so I don't get a memory "souvenir" to bring back, but the work is happening.

2. My analytical mind is way too loud in daily life, so hemi-sync just forcibly shuts the narrator down.

3. Trying too hard to remember triggers my analytical brain, which then has to get switched off.

My intention this last time about meeting a guide directly or just learn more about my current life/money journey. I have zero memory of meeting anything, but I woke up so clear I feel like the download happened subconsciously.

For the veterans: Is this consistent clicking out normal, and does it eventually stop? Did you learn to stay conscious through it or just surrender? Has anyone had these memory wipes eventually turn into vivid experiences later?

Appreciate any tips or thoughts.

I did the Gateway tapes over a year ago, got to around Tape 4, and then drifted away from them. Today I felt really pulled back to them, asked for a sign, and then randomly came across a thread on here about someone who stopped for a long time, came back, picked up where they left off, and had a vivid experience. The comments all said you don’t have to start over, just go back in. So I took that as my sign and did Tape 4.

But I keep hitting this pattern and want to know if anyone else deals with this. I go in conscious, follow along, and then just... click out. I completely lose the middle. I know I'm not falling asleep because when it ends I snap back instantly.

I used to think this was a "block," but I wake up feeling insanely refreshed, clear, and like my overthinking brain finally shut up. (Same thing happened to me at a guided Bashar meditation once where we were guided to enter a ship, I remember entering and then I clicked out. Then at the end of the meditation I regained my consciousness and "woke up" feeling amazing). Blocks usually leave you frustrated, but this feels healing.

My working theories right now:

1. The click-out IS the access. My verbal brain just goes offline so I don't get a memory "souvenir" to bring back, but the work is happening.

2. My analytical mind is way too loud in daily life, so hemi-sync just forcibly shuts the narrator down.

3. Trying too hard to remember triggers my analytical brain, which then has to get switched off.

My intention this last time about meeting a guide directly or just learn more about my current life/money journey. I have zero memory of meeting anything, but I woke up so clear I feel like the download happened subconsciously.

For the veterans: Is this consistent clicking out normal, and does it eventually stop? Did you learn to stay conscious through it or just surrender? Has anyone had these memory wipes eventually turn into vivid experiences later?

Appreciate any tips or thoughts.