u/TechnoBIT_yt

Hi I’m new to LGBTQ+ I figured out a that I was pan 3 days ago and I have felt so good about it feels like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders that I even knew I had. I feel like ther is so much more. I don’t know what I want if I want anybody to give me advice or not it’s just weird.

I am really new to this and I just want to know what I can use to think of a pattern without assigning gender I’m looking for stuff similar to boyfriend/girlfriend but not gender specific

Is it bad to just look at my friends cuts if we both do it and we’re both open with each other about the sh I don’t feel comfortable asking her so let me hear the general consensus

I just fell invalid that I’m not suffering enough that any joy is too much I hate that I’m eating again I just want to be in bed all day but I can’t. I have the energy but not the motivation so I’m just so restless I just want to talk to anybody that’s not my parents nothing I do is ever even to please them they get mad that I’m in bed all day and not using my new computer I i use my computer they say I’m on it to much and then they make up jobs for what reason i don’t know

I shouldn’t be like this most people have it wors then me im just over reacting im lazy I don’t even feel like im me I don’t have a problem with identity I just don’t feel like me I feel like im watching someone I hate
Can someone just comment something anything I don’t care what it is just something please.
Sorry for the ramble

I just had a realization about how sh is bad or something like that I am going to try to stop I just want support and advice (I’m not getting rid of my blades and if I stay clean for a week and want to fallow through I’ll tell my parents)

I’m just curious if your parents know do they care about the sh

I have been to therapy 2 times and I feel like I need to tell him but I’m scared my parents will get mad. He already knows I have cut in the past and I can’t hear what he says to my parents. Last time my parents saw my cuts that were very close to taking me to the mental hospital and if he tells them I might be cooked my parents have been more accepting recently so idk if they will over react
(Sorry if what I said was all over the place)

I have only cut on one spot for the entire time and it has been getting worse so I have ran out of space I’m trying not to daface my body anymore and my parents said if thay found out that I still cut they would send me to the mental hospital so I’m fighting the urge to cut my arm. Please don’t sh it is a really shity addition to have.