u/TheBlackSaiyan265

About two months ago, I (21M) made a post talking about how mentally draining it was when my parents blamed me for not finding a job, despite listening to everything they tell me to do. Well, today it seems to have finally reached a boiling point for my mom.

Because of the stress of not finding a job and other aspects in my life, it's been affecting my school work, and when I told her that I wasn't doing to good, she flipped. She's been saying I've been living off her for too long, that other kids have jobs and careers, that I'm not actually trying (despite the fact she's seen me leave and come back from interviews), and that fact that I just stay in my room. She now wants me to pack my things a live with my dad, which honestly is for the best since I don't feel safe with her.

Crazy part is that I'm not even mad anymore, It's just funny at this point. Jobs will really never give you a chance, and you have to bare with the consequences with those around you. She's still telling to just walk into places and ask for a job, even though I keep telling her that doesn't work these days, hence why I'm in my room all day just applying anywhere I can. I'm hoping this ends soon, but all I know is when I do get any job, I don't wanna hear her cheering me on saying she had faith when she clearly didn't.

As of writing this, I had a phone call with my dad half an hour ago. He was talking why I don't have a job, and it's getting so mentally draining that I sometimes can't take it anymore with my parents.

I've been looking for a job since January ever since I got my license, every job I go to either never gets back to me, declines the most simple jobs possible, or will interview and still decline despite having some work experience.

They say they care, and part of me wants to believe they do. But just the way they talk makes it feel like they're disappointed with me. Pointing out that their friends kids have jobs, always bringing up that kids at the age of 16 are working. My dad even just think I'm getting comfortable with not having a job, when he knows I didn't complain about my previous job, and that I'm constantly looking.

I also just feel like their views on things are outdated. My mom constantly tells me the reason I'm not getting work is because I'm not "knocking on people's door" for an opportunity. But who would've guess, when I do try, they just tell me to apply online, just to get rejected again.

It's just starting to reach a point where I'm feeling pretty hopeless. I can only touch up my resume so much, my parents just wanna believe that I'm being lazy, and these jobs are asking for so much for so little, it's so damn annoying

I recently got some money for my birthday, and I've thought about investing into a good body pillow, as I used to have one years ago before getting rid of it. In terms of what I'm looking for, I want it to be 150x50 Cm in length and width, and pretty firm. The best I could find was this one on Amazon for around $70 dollars, but some reviews say that it's misleading with what's inside. Plus all the other options are on their seem to be rather cheap and wouldn't turn out all that well.

I'm new when it comes to buying stuff for my bed, and don't really know where to look sometimes, so if anybody has a better suggestion, I would really appreciate it.