Preview of adulthood
Gonna be 20 tomorrow. 🥳🤩🤣🙂🙃🥲😥☹️🫤🫤😕😨😰🫣😱. So overwhelming. Appude 20 vachay naaku. It's just been 2 or 3 months since my 19th. Appude 20th ela vachindhi?? Edo teliyani Bhayam start aiyyindi past 1 month nundi. Ela undabotundi na life ani. I gotta act fast. We just bought a house recently and it's gonna take a minimum of 26 years to clear that debt. If all 4 of us work hard. Daanitho unna bhayam inkoncham ekkuva aiyyindi. Next GF. Just indaake we had an argument about our family issues. I support my mom and she supports hers. Obviously. This is the 1st serious argument between us btw. It was on Instagram but believe me if it was face to face i might've just stood silent or bailed on her. Instagram kabatti edo matladaanu and seems like i win that argument but matter enti ante, i felt that anxiety feeling in me. My legs shook and my heart was racing. Idi preview maatrame Inka ponu ponu future lo ela face chestaanoo. And next, family. There are some issues with my parents and my grandparents(maternal, and paternal too ig, but let's focus on maternal for now). Intaka mundu ante pillalam maatho peddaga cheppevallu kaadu and maalu kuda peddaga emi teleedu but ippudu pedda avutunnam kada, i got cursed like everyone. Being able to understand everything clearly about what's happening. Appudu Inka anxiety feeling chaala perigipoyindi. But I'm an expert in bottling up anything so I controlled myself. And I again felt like, "it's just a preview of adulthood. You'll get used to it" . But Ippude naaku inta bhayam vestunte Inka ecta bhayam vestundi and i might have a real panic attack. Na parents ela face chestunnaro?? Nenu valla laga strong kaadu. If this is adulthood and this goes on and on. I might end up having those panic or anxiety or whatever attacks. Adulthood's gonna be scary but I'll try to face it as best as I can. Don't y'all dare wish me happy birthday btw. You can if you want but I don't feel birthdays are something special. It's just another day of your life.