Can you get burnout from just constant failing or is this burnout at all?
So, backstory:
I'm 43 and self-diagnosed for around a decade (also officially diagnosed with ADHD (formerly ADD this year). I have failed at almost every single aspect of my life, all of my life. My longest relationship was about 2 and 1/2 years that ended 17 years ago. I never made many friends, the genuine friends that I've had that weren't manufactured friendships has been less than 5. My longest time I've held a job that wasn't a very, very minimal interaction job (DoorDash, Instacart, etc) was just over a year. I do have two college degrees (maybe soon-to-be 3rd) with a 3.8 GPA.
Now for the story:
I've noticed in the last year after I lost a job at an elementary school that I was about to start my second year at. Then, my only friend cut ties with me because I was "too much." I was constantly getting ghosted by women I was trying to get close to (nothing new, but it added to things). Then my car broke down, then my elderly uncle who helped financially support me throughout my life had a fall and I had to help take him around.
When all of this happened within months of each other last year, I started to change. I've bathed less, I've did laundry less (which I didn't do regularly anyways because there isn't a washer/dryer unit in my building), and I stay at home all day more. Another thing is that I've become more angry/impatient. I had a stranger yell at me a while back in a parking lot. Instead of ignoring the person like I would've before, I yelled back at him. I say what I'm thinking out loud in public. For example: A guy almost bumped into me at the store the other day because he was too busy looking at his phone. He said sorry, but instead of me saying "you're okay" like I would've before, I just kinda rolled my eyes and walked by him saying out loud "People can't keep their phones out of their faces for 1 fucking minute while they are walking."
I also can't deal with being in public much anymore to the point where lately I've actually been wearing my noise-canceling headphones when I'm in public on occasion. I never worn any in public unless I was listening to music up until just recently.
I told my psychiatrist a while back about some of this and he tried to tell me I could just have something like a thyroid issue or something else health related that's causing your irritability. I've also noticed in the last couple of months that I've been more tired than usual despite sleeping better (had septoplasty surgery in the spring which alleviated breathing issues). I thought maybe my testosterone is dipping. My levels are normal.
So, the only thing I can think of is that I'm in the middle of burnout due to constantly failing at just having a normal life.