u/The_Kader

Like easily TOP 3. I don't think it get's enough credit for being their most unique album (and one of, if not, the most unique albums I have ever heard, period).

It perfectly emits that weird and grotesque feeling it is trying to give off (most fitting album cover ever, too). Also, some of Ride's craziest verses OAT. If it was the end of Death Grips, it would honestly be a great sendoff. But I am still glad that isn't the case.

I would like to know about more about them. Are there many of them? The very least, someone who isn't pro-abortion. I know it is quite rare but I would appreciate to learn more.

Verbal expression is hard for me usually. I was just wondering if any of you would recommend taking a public speaking class. For those who have, did it help? What challenges did you face being autistic in the class? Thank you.

I'll go first. If you crowd please, especially at the expense of others.

I'm tired of masking. I'm tired of forcing myself to be around people who I know don't really care for my presence. I'm tired of forcing myself to do things I don't want to do just to "fit in" or "look normal." I'm tired of where I live, there is nothing here and is just full of bad memories. I want to leave all of this behind and everyone I (keyword: tried) to get along with.

I want to seek therapy too, but it is so hard finding the right one that specializes in neurodivergence, and it doesn't help that I procrastinate things like this often.

I feel like I have lost my sense of self, if I ever even had it to begin with. I want to move far away from this place and go to college, (hopefully) to become an industrial electrical technician. I never want to be the one to rush things in my life, but I am tired of the same issues repeating over and over again. I want to have some sense of control, which is why I feel like I need to just go away. Perhaps a risk like this is exactly what I need.

We are forced to conform to a neurotypical world. Imagine how nice it would be if it were swapped?

A more honest, organized and just society. Not plagued with overhead lights, less burnout, and in my opinion, far more interesting in nearly every aspect.

Obviously, it still wouldn't be perfect, but it would be a hell of a lot easier.

I am finally (but slowly) overcoming my burnout after months of being in it. It makes me wonder, just how bad has it gotten for you guys?

Friend group is kind of stretching it, I wouldn't call them friends, more like people that bare me.

Well, the person I was talking to ghosted me after I gave her the autism ick. That sucks, but it sucks even more because I made is so clear that if there is ANY issues, just directly tell me and be honest; I absolutely love resolving necessary conflict. She "agreed," but I know she didn't actually take anything I said to heart.

She hasn't spoken to me in weeks, I haven't texted her in weeks either. I give up on trying to resolve this in a mature manner, she wants to stop talking to me, so I'm done too. That would be such a freeing epiphany, but of course we have mutual people.

(and she INSISTED she meet my whole family early on into the relationship, when she never wanted me to meet hers).

Anyways, so the friend group had planned a camping trip a few months ago, and that is today. She is far more popular and liked in the group than I am, so of course I have to be the one to not go. It is so embarassing and they will definitely comment on my absence, but honestly I think it is better this way. Like I said, this group does not view me as a friend. I was always forcing myself around those people for two reasons anyways: for her, and to not be so isolated all the time.

What do you think I should do? Was this the right move? I might just bite the bullet, stay isolated, and hope I find my people eventually.

The quick answer that everybody thinks of is something insane like a NASA engineer, but I don't just mean careers like that. Generally, what are average jobs that people with ASD excel at and usually do better than NT counterparts?

I am also tired of telling people that my autism/ADHD causes this and that, because they just think I am deflecting and being lazy. It makes me question it too.

For example, I said to my family that my autism is the main reason for my depression, and they really dislike how I "use the labels in order to not want and try to get help."

I agree with them that I do procrastinate things, but I genuinely hate that I do. I say to them that I just have no direct motivation to do it, they don't really understand why I think that if I am so aware that I need help.

I have been reflecting on that, it does kinda sound like I am using my labels as excuses. I genuinely don't want to come off like that, but I still hold strongly that my disorders absolutely do cause these issues I am facing. Idk man...

That's all.

I am just so sick and tired of people (cough, cough, NTs) always taking things as personal attacks against them. Get a grip.

Growing up I constantly masked. I still mask often, though now I am more aware when I do it and why. I would always hide my true self/personality because I saw it as "wrong" or "weird." I hated myself solely because of that reason; I was led to believe I was broken. And now in early adulthood I see what a terrible effect it has had on my identity.

Around other people, I feel like I am outside of my own body, controlling some kind of character; I treat life often like a choose your own story game. It takes awhile for me to truly know how I feel about certain situations as well, and becomes a constant tug of war in my brain:

"I am remorseful it was my fault.. no wait I am angry and spiteful at that person.. actually this is good for me I'm happy it happened." That sort of thing, all the time.

I think this is a huge reason I struggle with depression and low self-esteem. I genuinely don't know what I want or why I do the things I do. Also, it leaves me with a general disdain towards people, even if they never did anything necessarily wrong. Maybe I am envious of their happiness and peace of mind.

It is all so confusing to me, always. I just want peace of mind. I want to know what it feels like.

As I have gotten older, dealing with constant ghosting and conflict avoidance from people has caused me to just not care anymore.

Uncertainty is the worst. I've never understood why NTs think ignoring awkward situations/inconveniences is the best solution, especially if it is inevitably going to happen. Don't you just want to get it over with?

For me, the problem is always on my mind until there is a clear and direct resolution to it. It is stressful, but in the end I consider it a good trait to have. How do NTs manage to ignore it? It just seems lazy and inmature.

I am currently in a depressive state. This isn't something that is new to me, but oh boy this is probably the worst it has ever been in my life. I am constantly ruminating on my (many) past mistakes and things that haven't happened yet. I am constantly anxious and irratable; haven't felt at peace in a long time.

I haven't been able to keep my basic routines recently because of all this, which in turn causing me to spiral even further down. For example, something I have been doing is making these intricate to-do lists for the week, and those do give me a little rush of motivation. But guess what? The thoughts pretty much never leave the paper and I usually just end up forgetting and trashing the lists.

It is an endless cycle. I feel useless, disgusting, dissociated, regretful, alone. I am not suicidal, but all I want to do is sleep.

I have my interests and I love them, but I am never motivated to build upon them. It feels like I love the thought of me having them as hobbys more than actually doing the hobby itself.

I am currently wanting to try therapy but it is hard finding someone that specializes in neurodivergence in my area (not to mention I keep procrastinating the phone calls, making the process take longer than it should).

It is a constant sense of doom. I really hope it gets better eventually, but not knowing how or when is terrifying.

Just a little hope posting. I was just thinking about how the way we analyze things and hyperfixiate on specific topics is so interesting; we are so unique. We see the world at a highented sense. Everything is so much more vibrant for us.

Who cares if the rest of the world doesn't get us? We get us. We get ourselves; nobody else is in my brain except me. If they wont understand the way we operate, the things we say, etc., then so be it. Who cares. And btw... there WILL be the select few that do, and those people are real special (no pun intended).

Stay strong guys.

I'l never understand it. I'm sure we have all had an instance where a person, romantic or not, entertained a relationship with us, only to slowly distance themselves without ever really saying a word about it.

Sure, I may come off as weird, confused you, made things awkward at times; I do get that, and I do understand if it sets you off. The issue is... JUST TELL ME I DID. Is it that hard to be direct? I hate the ambiguity, it just makes things ten times worse for the both of us.

Now we are just stuck in limbo, which is even worse if we still see each other in the same places, like work or school. Doesn't closure sound like the best solution for wanting to distance yourself from me? I would respect you so much more as an individual if you did.