45 days without weed which is also an accomplishment for me. I get bored sometimes and get cravings for both still, but overall I'm proud of myself for sticking to it. Anybody else making the commitment to get sober? If so, what keeps you going? If not, is there something holding you back or is it just not a desire?
I had over 6 months under my belt then I got bored and lost self control. I want to want to be sober. On July 8th, it'll be a year since my last drink. I'm pretty good without alcohol. I'm used to it at this point. Doesn't mean it's not a temptation. Just means I've created a new neural pathway for dealing with that particular problem.
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With weed, however, I struggle. In a lot of ways I do better when I smoke. I know it's supposedly worse for your anxiety and mental health to smoke, but for me, it is helpful. Unfortunately I don't have self control. If I start vaping again, I go back to all day everyday. I think if I could just use marijuana once a day or even less often than that, it could be a helpful tool for me unfortunately I have a super addictive personality and can't seem to do anything in moderation.
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At this point I've replaced my weed and alcohol habit with food which is arguably worse for my health as an overweight person. I just seem to need a vice and can't seem to find a healthy one. I've tried going for walks when I want to smoke or drinking a bottle of water to do something quick to connect with the idea of smoking. It doesn't seem to work. It doesn't take away the urge. I want to quit for my kids. They are worth it, but it is tough.
I take ketamine for depression and have had pretty good luck with it. I am looking at micro dosing either lsd or psilocybin to sort of jump start my brain into making new neural pathways. I have a friend who is willing to trip sit with my and I am curious about your experiences with LSD or psilocybin or perhaps even another synthetic. Just doing research at this point. Let me know what works for you and what definitely doesn't.
I have been on cobenfy for about 4 months now and for the past month (at least) I have been dealing with avolition and anhedonia and apathy and I kinda can't take it anymore. I talked with my doctor briefly and we are going to meet on Tuesday to discuss it further. I am tired of feeling nothing. I'm not happy or sad or content or angry or relaxed or anything. I just don't feel. And that lack of feeling feels miserable. I can't bring myself to do anything efficient in my day. I lay down in my bed and either sleep or stare at my eyelids or the wall. I don't have any motivation to accomplish any necessary cleaning or general house duties like laundry or dishes or mowing the lawn. I'm struggling with seeing the point in continuing treatment if it is going to have me feeling so miserable.
Has anybody else been on cobenfy (and invega) and had negative symptoms ruin their days? Let me know your experiences. I was really hopeful that cobenfy would be my solution, and it may be, but I am having real struggles with the negative symptoms.