u/The_royal_army

found it and it took away some of my health without my consent

its too hard any tips of why is that :(

(im not posting daily nobody cares)

the locks couldnt sicken me but THIS thing
its beyond USELESS now i cant even know if my friends are talking someone i cant talk to, its just there to fill the emptiness of the chat but now this feels like a dystopian world.

[no trigger warning nothing to worry about]

i have been the past 7 years isolated from all my friends outside school, i had a lot of time to find and learn about myself and thats really good but this messed up my vocal chords due to the lack of verbal communication. my online friends and family would support me whenever i need it but it doesnt matter :c

my country is incredibly homophobic that searching for a place for me is not possible, the right people exist but they might push me away due to the oppresive mayority </3

i will have to wait until i can get out of here but its not gonna be any soon or easier :cc

i pushed all my online friends (with a nice message saying this was temporary) thinking i was ready and my goal was a few steps away but the floor i were about to step on is made of spikes

i just wanted to take away my comfort to force myself to take a step forward but thank god i realized all this before i did

fortunately im perfectly fine, im used to being alone and isolated and i didnt lose much now i just need to go back to my comfort zone until theres something i can step on to get out-

but not everything is bad at least i found a my college best friend is supportive to me and hes a cute boy (for me:3!! tho not to kiss cus hes straight :<)