u/Theiama

Hi. I’m a university student, who can’t talk to anyone. I’m terrible at any form of communication and just avoid talking to ppl in general… strangers, that is. If I know ppl/feel comfortable with them I am super annoying and obsessive. I had friends in HS but we’ve all went our own separate ways and barely ever talk. I used to like someone and vented to him all the time about stuff but he left and doesn’t like me back.

Idk why I’m typing this. I can’t talk to ppl and can’t hold a conversation so don’t bother dming me, idk what other subs to post on

I have this huge issue and it’s been ruining my life lately. Ive never been overweight, when I was younger ppl would always mention I was skinny. I didn’t really mind it much. But recently, I’ve gained weight and it’s completely ruined me. For a few years I’ve been eating a bit more ig (I don’t think I eat much more than before?) and I’ve gained a bit of weight. Ik I’m not really very overweight (I’m 5’4 and like 124lbs) and what I’m going to say will probably come off as an overreaction, but it has absolutely DESTROYED my self image. I used to be (somewhat) confident in my appearance and would dress is basically whatever I wanted, but now that I look a little bit bigger I’m always wearing baggy stuff to hide my body. I always suck my belly in when I’m around ppl. I always try to look up to avoid having a double chin. It’s especially annoying now that it’s summer and I can’t wear half the things I want, I need to hide my stupid body because it looks awful. Being skinny and having it pointed out to me kinda made it a part of me and now that I’m not skinny anymore it feels like I’ve lost a part of myself

I try working out. I’m busy and don’t have too much time to go to gym, so I try to work out at home. I don’t really know what I’m doing too much. But due to me being busy and very lazy, I neglect it for long periods of time so I probably make no progress. I wish I had any actual dedication (but I do walk quite a bit)

Specifically labs in university

I’ve/I am taking undergrad physics/chem courses, wanting to be a physician, and I’m fine with the lectures, but NOT with the labs. Not because it’s like super hard, but because I’m just so bad at hands on stuff. I’m completely useless in anything that isn’t like, getting the equipment. It makes me feel so dumb and worthless. Like today in chem, we were supposed to open a cabinet with a lock on it. I’ve never opened a lock like that and just sat there for like 10 minutes fumbling with it (everyone else knew how to) and had to ask the teacher to help me open it… and I still don’t know how and will have to do it again on Monday. I’m so useless

I also hate group work specifically in these classes. Apart from being useless in them, they’re a lot more male dominated then other classes, and I just don’t feel as comfortable talking to men than women (I’m really bad at talking to ppl in general tho!). We did this safety quiz kahoot thing today (first time doing a kahoot in years) and we all needed a partner, and everyone had a friend (expect me ofc) so I had to partner with a man who didn’t have a partner. He had other friends (but they already had partners) and when I came over him and his friends where looking at each other trying not to laugh and we like awkwardly exchanged words, and for the rest of the time he talked to his friends while doing the kahoot and I just sat in between them awkwardly.. and he’s probably my lab partner for the semester..

(the rant subreddit doesn’t allow rants so I’m posting here)

Hi. I was talking to someone and they mentioned that Pinterest has dark mode. I’ve been using Pinterest on light mode for so long I’ve never even considered dark mode might exist. But I can’t find any option for it in settings, and trying to search it up gave me conflicting results that seemingly don’t work??

I’m using the mobile app

Hi. So years ago I uploaded photos of myself ALL THE TIME on Reddit, to the point I got +1400 followers. I did it because I liked the validation I got, when I was a kid. Obviously, nobody here actually cares about u and just wants to get into ur pants and will say whatever they need to say to do that, so what they said is mostly meaningless. When I did that, and deleted those photos, somehow they stayed online because they’ve been uploaded online on another site and are still on Reddit (on another account I don’t have anymore). And I can’t take them down. I don’t want images of me online forever without my permission, it feels like a huge invasion of privacy. Flash forward a few years, I would never post myself here (or online in general) for years, but recently I’ve kinda relapsed into doing it again? Ik nothing comes out of it expect being stuck online forever again (hasn’t happened again from what I’ve seen?) ppl online say the exact same things over and over and over again, but in the moment I enjoy it. I feel bad for it, like I’m a huge attention whore and am just destroying my privacy, but my privacy has already been destroyed…

I want to never upload pictures of myself again and just use this time obsessing over what ppl online think for smthing better

Hi! I made a diagram for smthing once, and I thought it sucked, so I made another. But I still think it sucks. So I want u to compare the 2 and tell me which one is less bad

The diagram is about anime nerdy stuff (u aren’t allowed to question it 🧍‍♀️)