u/Themixedmutt

I was molested when i was 8 and i suffer thru mental illness from it.OCD type stuff from religious to harming other to rabies fentanyl,diseases etc etc.When I was In the 9th grade my friend passed away from a brain aneurysm.I keep asking God to show himself but I get nothing.I feel alone in the world with nobody to help me.What should I do to better my life.

I been molested I lost my friend when he was only 14 to a brain aneurysm I suffer mental illness my whole life.Does God having a destiny contradict Christian theology did God cause these problems or did God allow me to exist at the right time to face these problems please help me