The "ahankari"
I am the ahankari of the house to the point I unknowingly caused my brother to have no voice.
I was always rebellious, challenging traditional stereotypes and questioning everything. And from as long as I can remember, I had the title "ahankari" branded on me. I was fine with it all until I realised how much it affected my brother.
Because I was like this, he was put in a position where he was forced to become the compliant good boy. One who listened and nodded and never questioned anything. Now, at the age of 17, he has no real friends, no real opinions, easily influenced and doesn't even know how to defend himself when wronged. And one time I supported him enough for him to voice his thoughts, he was driven to a point of thoughts of suicide. For the first time in my life I'm feeling so helpless.
Our parents won't listen to a word we say. They have a mindset and anything that challenges it is wrong and dumb. They don't understand the amount of pressure they put on him. I have escaped this help but unknowingly trapped my brother in it. He doesn't even have the courage to try to escape it.