u/Thin-Language-5071

I feel like I'm not worth it and it sucks

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"Denial is a river in Egypt you're a GIRL!"

I'm still in the questioning stage really. Just impulsive :3

Maybe imposter syndrome. I say as I catch myself fantasizing about being a girl again.

I was shirtless a lot when I was younger. I mean… I do hate when people can see my chest through shirts. I don't really know if I was comfortable shirtless. It's best not to dwell.

Maybe constantly wanting to be a woman is enough.

All I know is that I wanna be an incredibly sapphic woman.

I might put something here later

Thank you! :3

My mom keeps giving me these doubtful rants about how, "this is very common" or "a lot of cis teens go through gender dyphoria". I didn't ask for a source but ugh… now everything is crushing me. Is she right? I mean, the statistics for gender dysphoria in teens are the statistics for being trans so it sounds like bullshit.

I wanna be a girl. So much is going on with my brain and none of it actually matters. I don't wanna be a boy, why has my brain given up on trying to defend me from my doubt? What is with this endless self-persecution? I don't feel "enough" anymore. This stuff has been showing up for years!

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It's because (it's stupid I know) like… what if I don't like it? Then I wouldn't be a girl. I wanna use Lizzy and she/her but it's hard to not feel at least a little nervous.

I put the fem ones on it and I thought, "damn, I can't wait to be cute like that"

I put the masc one on and it didn't really affect me. I didn't see myself in him at all. My thought process was, "why is he kinda fine?"

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Freaking about "not being trans enough" is actually really common. It annoys me when I can't see that. And trying to force it definitely doesn't help. It probably is detrimental to do that because genvy is more of a natural response.

Listening to "DAMIDAMI" rn

I wish some higher being could just make me one.

I'm getting pissed off cuz my brain is imposter syndroming me.

GGD for Lizzy?

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I still don't feel justified but it is nice to know I'm already a girl. The propaganda is getting to me though. It's telling me I'll never be a girl. Ugh… :3

I'm just not doing well. Overthinking and stuff. It's driving me insane. Thank you :3

Yeah, I'm really just curious how often people get numb and apathetic with this. Repression type shit.