u/TiffMonsterEatsBaby

So I tried Sudowrite and mostly liked it, but I barely got one chapter done before running out of credits, and the billing cycle isn't even halfway over. I liked the place because I was writing a slower-burn story for fun, because I'm not professional and planned on keeping it to myself. I liked the quality of the writing, but the credit system is a joke. I might be less mad if it were more of a daily credit system, but it's frustrating. I've tried almost every alternative I've found through Google. Because of that, I am mostly just kinda venting, but wouldn't mind if anyone has suggestions.

Are there dark romance books with a silly neurodivergent FMC who has some physical limitations (I have POTS) and maybe is a bit of a meatball (short but a bit chonky) and a bit timid and shy at first? I really want to read about an FMC that's more relatable to me. She doesn't have to check all these boxes, but I would like it if she checked most of them off. I prefer audiobooks because I'm busy and often distracted, so that is more convenient for me. I feel like a story with an FMC like that has the potential to be pretty dark if the MMC is sadistic enough. I'm not usually into reverse harem, but I'm kinda open to try if it's a good story. Cheating is a hard no (I LOVE an MMC that is down bad for the FMC). Bonus points if she can't work and is kinda a bit boring aside from being silly and potentially occasionally gets into some sort of trouble. I'm just tired of reading books where the FMC is all demure or a badass because there aren't many FMCs that are in-between. Maybe I'm looking in the wrong places? Maybe I should just find some time and the attention span to actually read? Sorry, this post is now longer than I wanted because I kinda started to rant. If I could write, I would write one myself because I have ideas; I just can't bring them to life, you know?

I recently have been getting videos on HTP6 on my FYP on TikTok, and one of them was an esthetician. But given what the videos said, with me being insecure about aging and that I'm on GLP1 medication for medical reasons I was considering buying the HTP6 serum by epii because it's the only skincare product I can find with HTP6 but it's kinda expensive.

I have two credits on Audible right now I'm currently listening to Haunting Adeline by H.D. Carlton and I have Hunting Adeline by H.D. Carlton Game on by Nevessa Allen and Under Your Scars by Ariel N. Anderson in my TBR. I'm not usually into why I choose, but I'm open to trying. My favorite story so far is the Web of Silence duet by Leigh Rivers. I did like Lights Out for the comedy, but it was underwhelming overall. Bonus points if the FMC is relatable because I'm a silly weird girl and disabled (mental illness and orthostatic hypotension) but it's not a must.