u/Top-Professor-2951

my baby is 27 weeks old and ever since he was born, i have HATED getting him to sleep. i hate having to wake up, i hate have to get him back to sleep, i hate it so so much

i am a single mom. so 99.9% of his naps and 100% throughout the night, i am getting him to sleep. i have always dreaded it. i have always looked at the clock and hated seeing how close his nap/bed time was

i was very delirious and sleep deprived whenever he was born because i had only gotten 2 hours of sleep before i went into labor at 3 am. and then could barely sleep at the hospital from anxiety

the part that i have hated the most, is bouncing him to sleep. that has honestly where most of my postpartum rage has come from. obviously not directly at him. but ill be tired and just want to lay down and relax, i look down, and he is still wide awake

it has gotten better since he is older now and not a newborn. sorta. more so because i have been using the yoga ball to bounce him to sleep so it’s much easier that way

but now it’s worse because if im already overwhelmed, him doing that whiny hum is soooo much more overstimulating it’s crazy. and he will even do things like stretch out his body, either a tiny bit or all the way

it’s currently almost 1 am here and he did not was to go right back to sleep after eating, so i had to bounce him, which frustrated me already. but the fact that i have to be up early because his 6 month appointment is at 11 am 🫠

and the annoying thing is, his appointment was SUPPOSED to be tuesday at 2:30 pm, but his pediatrician got a different job so they had to reschedule and squeeze us in at 11…

me and my son are typically just getting up for the day at 10:30…

im just frustrated, i wanted to relax some more but now i have to bounce him and pray that he doesn’t shoot awake when i set him down

i just want sleep that i don’t have to work for

i am a (20F) single mom to a 6 month old as of today (yay!!). i have been broken up with my child’s father since before i even found out i was pregnant. he has only seen my son a total of 3 times. twice at the hospital (day of and day after i gave birth) and one time when he was 2 months old

i am completely over that man and i have absolutely zero interest in him. the only reason he isnt blocked is because of my son. that’s it

of course i still do expect him to acknowledge my existence and be like, “hey, thanks for literally doing all the work. happy mother’s day.” especially if im soloing and doing it ALL on my own?

i dont know, it really just irritates me at the fact that he can’t even do a simple act and wish me well and thank me..

he never checks up on us, never messages or anything

the only reason we have communication recently is because i TOLD him to contribute financially. i didn’t ask, i told him he needs to contribute an agreed amount of money. thankfully he obliged. but the last message he sent me was a month ago and he was asking for $40 back from my sons money..

of course i told him no. i told him that money is for my son and we made an agreement on the amount

i really dont know. i feel like im being foolish. but it’s my first mother’s day, why can’t his father just send me a simple text to thank me? i feel extremely under appreciated by him