u/TopWar6907

I have been exclusively pumping for 6.5 months now. I wanted to make it 1 year, baby wouldn’t latch but original goal was to EBF for one year, but we obviously had to pivot.

Then my supply dipped and I haven’t been able to make enough for my baby, so after all the trials we finally found a formula he could tolerate and he’s been combo fed ever since.

Anyways, I’m so over it. I’ve constantly gotten clogs and mastitis- I recently hit a peak on milk supply and thought I had things figured out and was looking forward to the last 6 months of our pumping journey because it was looking up.

Wellllll, now baby is crawling and climbing all over me and way more mobile and I’m home alone so it makes pumping nearly impossible. I’ve had more clogs and another dip in supply in the last 2 weeks since he’s started crawling than ever before.

I wanted so badly to provide my milk for my baby for a year but I’m so tired of pumping and feel I’m losing out on precious time with him each day as well as I feel locked to my couch, wearables don’t work for me unfortunately.

Now all this being said, I know I can just wean and hang up the pump and that it’s okay. But why am I so sad about it and why am I having such a hard time actually doing it? I like refuse to quit even though I know it might be best and baby is fine on formula.

Ugh idk what I’m looking for here, maybe some reassurance and solidarity I guess.

If you read this far, thank you :) just needed to rant I guess.

Baby refuses to sleep unless chest sleeping or in his little bouncer chair. I’m fine with chest sleeping however we are on the couch with pillows propping my arm up so he can’t fall off the couch but he has started to roll and slide down and I’m very afraid as I realize how unsafe this is. I usually have someone watching us while we sleep and I get up when my fiance goes to bed, but lately he’s been falling asleep and I will wake up to baby in scary positions.

I have a large bed we can chest sleep on however it is extremely soft. Is it a good idea to put his bassinet pad underneath my mattress to make a section more firm for him? Idk what to do but my anxiety is getting worse by the minute about our sleeping arrangement.

Thank you!