u/Toxicysl

As the title states I know this is super random but nobody I know irl likes Harry Potter and I love talking about it role playing etc I’m just obsessed with Harry Potter I love all the books and films. Something about it just makes me so happy I want to share that happiness because sometimes I get lonely when I can’t share or talk about HP :)

Just wondering if I’ll ever be able to smoke weed again once the clots have dissolved and I’m off the blood thinners. My DVT was provoked it was due to the constant overhead motions and it started in my right arm and went to my right lung. The day I got discharged the nurse while I was in hospital told me I could continue smoking and actually offered me to go into the carpark so I could have a joint if I wanted one but I declined. My Haematologist just told me not to smoke while they are recovering so I got a prescription for some edibles she said I was safe to use them. So from a professional medical standpoint I’ve had two different opinions the doctors and nurses at the hospital told me I could pretty much just go on with my life when I got discharged but the hematilgist thinks I should take a more cautious approach. I’m willing to wait I just don’t want to be told I can never smoke it again and that would freak me out tbh. I’ve noticed the edibles just don’t really work and there’s been this void missing in my life. I’ve been to therapist I exercise and I’m very active all around and I have a good social life but it’s still just missing and I can’t lie I’ve been a bit overwhelmed and depressed because it’s been apart of my daily routine for about while now.

Basically 2 months ago I had a PE in my left lung and I’m currently recovering. I was very active and fit it was caused by overhead lifting. The doctor said it would take about 6 months for my lungs to recover completely and she’s going to take me off the blood thinners soon due to my age and because it was provoked. At the moment I’m just taking edibles but I’m building up a tolerance to them pretty fast. Will I be able to smoke again safely once I’ve recovered? I probably won’t smoke as much as I did but I really want to partake I wasn’t a drinker and it was my way of winding down and the edibles just don’t hit the same the void is still missing.

For context I smoked everyday for 7 years with the odd few months off in between due to vacations etc. I’d smoke anywhere from 1.5 grams to 3 grams a day depending on how busy I was. I haven’t smoked in a month due to some health concerns but my haematologist said she was quite happy for me to start ingesting edibles until my lungs recover a bit more. I have 10mg gummies how many milligrams should I take I’ve never really been high off edibles because when I used to take them I was smoking at the time aswell so I just never noticed the effects from them because I was already stoned lol. I’m assuming it’s gonna be way different now considering it’s been a month and my receptors have pretty much reset. What’s good dose I should take ?

I don’t even know where to begin I feel so deflated and defeated. I don’t know how I can ever bounce back especially if I have to stay on blood thinners all my life. I miss my sports I miss being able dance around listening to music without a care or worry in the world. If I have to change my lifestyle and things I love doing Im going to miss myself and who I was because i was the happiest id ever been. It’s my own fault tho I’ve been a smoker since I was 14 relatively heavy both cigarettes and (medical) marijuana (although its really same isn’t it) It’s just how I dealt with things I’ve had a very traumatic childhood but so has a lot of ppl so there’s no excuses and it’s probably why I’m in this situation now.

I’m 2 weeks out and I’m a absolute mess. I feel like I’m a shell of myself I’m holding onto things I enjoy but even my passions are fading I’m truly loosing my identity and everything I have and it’s tearing me apart mentally.

I quit smoking cigarettes the day of diagnosis and I only lasted 3 days without marijuana but I had 5 different doctors opinions before I resumed so but even then I can’t have the peace of mind because I still believe I’m doing something wrong so I just end up having a panic attack. I don’t know what to do I just need to relax the first week I was on a low dose of Valiums and that helped but now I’m truly stuck I’m scared if I have a joint to relax it will just mess up my blood thinners and I’ll just drop dead of heart failure or something. 5 of them told me it’s ok I just I don’t know.

I’m truly a mess right now everything is falling apart. I had just started sim racing aswell and I had recently completed my dream build and all that has been put on pause aswell. They also told me to look out for any chest pain and shortness of breath and as someone who suffers from really bad panic attacks it’s just to hard to tell the difference between my mind playing tricks on me or if it’s another PE or I’ll get internal bleeding from the Eliquis or something to do with my heart.

When I don’t smoke the chest pains get really bad and when I do smoke I almost become breathless because I work myself up. I just don’t know what to do. I can’t keep going on like this it’s destroying me from the inside out. I’m sorry for the whine I just needed to vent i feel like such a crybaby right now but I just want my life back I was genuinely really happy and everything was going well finally.