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So basically I've been having trouble with my heart rate jumping up and I'm pretty sure that it's pots and I'm going for the test to see next week but anyway

I got sick in the middle of a store, I started to feel dizzy, my head was pounding, my chest starting hurting, my legs were shaking, and I just didn't feel good and I could tell my heart rate was jump so I sat down in the floor bc I was by myself

And I started getting the dirtiest looks from all these old people and then I heard some old woman say "kids these days are so lazy"

More like "old people these days are so freaking rude" 😭😭😭

Ok so long story but my ex is Back in my life. So he told me (16f) that he’s never missed anyone more than he’s missed me in the past year bc we went a year without talking and then he asked me if we could ever try again and I told him not rn bc he’s not in a good place to be in an actual relationship and I’m not ready to try again and that if we were to try again then we have to wait until I’m 18 too

So that was 10 days ago

Fast forward to today I find out that he got back with his other freaking ex gf

Like if he don’t have feelings for me that’s fine but I’m so annoyed that he gave me this crap about how much he’s missed me just to turn around and start talking to his ex again

Ik it's probably stupid to post this but like I need to rant

So like I'm supposed to be going to a water park with 2 of my friends and one of them isn't going and I'm not mad at her bc she's got valid reasons not to come but she didn't tell me until I was already with my other friend who I'm riding with and all of her friends are gonna be there and idk her friends except for one of them and I can't stand her and then she's got another girl with us rn that idk and they both brought earbuds and planned to listen to music the whole way down but no one told me so I left my headphones at home and so like now they're over there listening to music and giggling and I'm just here.....

I feel invisible and I feel like I'm gonna feel like this all night

I wanna go home but I don't want her to think that I like our other friend more than her bc I don't but I just don't wanna be here rn

I'm on the verge of freaking tears

To my ex....

You wrote me, and I swore I wouldn't write you back, Because I've already written so many words for you in the past. But like the poet that I am, I can't resist when the pencil's in my hand.

I told you I've forgiven you before. But maybe this will help you understand more.

I've forgiven you, the same way the sea forgives the moon that caused the hurricane. I've forgiven you, the same way the stars forgive the sun that hid them during the day.

And I will always forgive you, as long as I live Because God has forgiven me of my sin.

And there aren't enough words in the English language to describe how much for you I care. I could write heaps and hills and mountains of poems and still never get there.

So I chose to forgive you And not because I have to. I chose to forgive you, Because I care too much not too.

I had to remind myself of all the words I’ve written for him, and all the words I’ve written for you too. Oh my, how different they are, but they’re still proof that I loved the both of you.

I really loved both of you.

I loved both of you, so much that I could write words and words and words and never run out of rhymes. I loved both of you, as possible as it is to love two people at the same time.

But now, you’re both complete strangers to me. I don’t know your favorite foods or your favorite things on TV. I don’t know your favorite most played music artist or your celebrity crush. I don’t know what you spend your time doing and I don’t know what makes you blush.

So I don’t know you guys anymore.

And that’s the weird thing about love, I don’t have to know you to love you. I don’t have to like or want you to love you.

And for whatever reason, I still love the both of you.

I love both of you, even though you’re both complete strangers. I love both of you, yet I can only keep one of you forever.

Ok so my sister just recently married a guy with kids back in march and so they asked me to babysit during the summer bc I was looking for a job, I have babysat those children every week since the first week of June and I haven’t gotten a single penny, I love my sister and the kids and I understand that money is tight, but they have told me from the beginning that they would pay but they still haven’t,

And these kids are also mean btw like they don’t listen they hit me and scream

But I’ve still watched them for her

I cancelled plans to watch them and told people that I couldn’t hang out bc I had to babysit And I still haven’t been paid

Like I feel bad for asking bc it’s my sister and I low key don’t even know how to bring it up

What am I supposed to do????

I’m so boredddd (I’m not a pedo and please no requesting to sext)

Edit: I forgot to say that I’m 16f

So my friend texted me today and said she’s so glad that we are close.

This same friend is very judgmental. She once told me that she hoped I would loose my bathing suit before I go to the beach bc going to the beach is wrong apparently (idk why she says that lol) and she’s said other stuff like that

She accuses me of missing doing sexual things with my ex (my ex used to say that if I loved him I would do what he wanted btw)

She says that I made out with this one boy who literally just walked me to an elevator bc there was some man staring at me.

I also can’t trust her with anything bc she always tells other people the things I say to her in private

There are several other things she does so we are not close but I feel bad bc I don’t wanna lie to her but I. I also don’t wanna hurt her feelings by saying we aren’t close

So what am I supposed to do

I am 16 and she is 15 btw

So like I have a friend that I’m somewhat close to and tbh I’ve always thought her brother (19 btw) is attractive and I’m 16 so I tried not to talk much to him bc I don’t wanna get attached to him and then hurt bc ik he doesn’t like me and also there’s another boy that I thought I was in love with and I actually have a chance with him but for the past little bit the other guy has like talked to me and like we’ve got to know each other he still only sees me as his little sisters friend tho which ik is good bc he is too old for me but I also just found out that he likes a different girl that’s actually his age and ik that’s good too but it hurts so much I didn’t realize that I liked him this much until I found out about that and I don’t want to like him but idk how to stop it

So I’m 16F and I’m in a trio of best friends I’ve had the same trio for 2 and a half years and I consider both of the girls my best friends well I feel like one of the girls is becoming more selfish and I’m not sure why (to be clear I am not against people putting their mental health first and not people pleasing in fact I think that’s healthy) however I don’t feel that’s how she’s doing so 2 school years ago (we all went to the same private school) everything seemed perfectly fine we were all three hanging out constantly well fast forward to August right before school started back she told us she was changing schools and it was her decision (by that I mean her parents gave her the decision) which would have made way more sense to me if she had been getting bullied or something at our school but she wasn’t in fact we had a pretty good size friend group and everyone had gotten along in it but she left and we obviously moved on but now it seems like she’s mostly caught up with her new friends that she doesn’t have time for me or our other friend for example she’s been going to several different week long camps with her new friends and I’m going to a summer camp next month which she has been telling me since last summer she’s going too but now that it’s less than a month away she texted me and said she doesn’t wannna go anymore when I asked her why she said she just doesn’t wanna go she also has been posting tons of stuff on her socials recently calling her new friends her best friends (even tho these are the same people that made fun of her the first month of school) and my other best friend told her the other day that we missed her and she said “I misss you too but I could never leave my friends” I do fully understand when someone is happier some where else. And it’s ok with me that she’s happy but I also feel like she’s quit caring about how we feel but I don’t want to make her angry by jumping to conclusions

I’m bored as crap anyone wanna talk??

So I’m 16f and for the past 4 years I’ve had extreme day time sleepiness that will make me go completely mindless. I can’t think or hardly be able to do anything bc I’m so tired. And this happens at least once but usually more. It usually happens when I get super excited or super stressed but sometimes just out of the blue. I also get sleep paralysis but not like with hallucinations just where I can’t move. I also experience very vivid dreams every night and even just during naps and ik that is a symptom too. Every time I tell my doctor about it tho she says it’s just my age. So if anyone has narcolepsy and thinks that I sound like I have it lmk and also should I get checked for it?? (I have other symptoms too I just didn’t include them)