u/TransGirl8815

A notification from this group made me thonk i was about to be banned from somewhere lol

Idk what i was expecting or hoping i guess i was hoping it was anything curable tho i guess i knew this was it i mean i have answers now so thats good

But this is all overwhelming for me all new for me even tho i struggled for a while i always had hope for a cure now thats gone and treatments alot of work my other disabilities make treatment near impossible this is alot for me

>!Every one of the following, by itself, is enough to make me question whether I can keep living.

- I live with pain throughout my entire body every single day.

- I struggle to make female friends because my social skills aren't great, and the isolation is crushing.

- The lack of socialization is destroying my mental health.

- I can't live stealth as the woman I am, and because of my weight I don't feel like my appearance reflects who I truly am.

- My voice causes me so much distress. I'm trying so hard to improve it, but it feels like no matter what I do, people still see me the wrong way.

- Being trans is incredibly painful for me. I wish I had been born a cis woman, with the body that feels right to me, to be seen and included without my transness being a factor, and to have the ability to experience things like pregnancy.

- I'm constantly attacked over my music because it uses AI, and people dismiss the countless hours of writing, editing, and work I pour into it. It's still my art.

It feels like I can't live as my authentic self without facing exclusion, attacks, or being treated as less than.

I can't express myself without being met with hate, abuse, or bullying.

I don't know what a normal life feels like.

I don't even know what it feels like to live without pain.

And somehow, I'm still expected to just keep living.!<

Sensitive content >!Every one of the following, by itself, is enough to make me question whether I can keep going.

- I live with pain throughout my entire body every single day.

- I struggle to make female friends because my social skills aren't great, and the isolation is crushing.

- The lack of socialization is destroying my mental health.

- I can't live stealth as the woman I am, and because of my weight I don't feel like my appearance reflects who I truly am.

- My voice causes me so much distress. I'm trying so hard to improve it, but it feels like no matter what I do, people still see me the wrong way.

- Being trans is incredibly painful for me. I wish I had been born a cis woman, with the body that feels right to me, to be seen and included without my transness being a factor, and to have the ability to experience things like pregnancy.

- I'm constantly attacked over my music because it uses AI, and people dismiss the countless hours of writing, editing, and work I pour into it. It's still my art.

It feels like I can't live as my authentic self without facing exclusion, attacks, or being treated as less than.

I can't express myself without being met with hate, abuse, or bullying.

I don't know what a normal life feels like.

I don't even know what it feels like to live without pain.

And somehow, I'm still expected to just keep living.!<

NSFW >!Havent used reddit really hardly at all til recently

But my health is not doing good

And im really wanting my life to end badly

I dont see a future for me

Im in pain with very little family left

Im failing at managing my life

A1c 7.7 glucose over 250

Muscle psin in near 100% of my body

Services just not there

Financial situation in a horrible state

While i am in college for computer science i dont see a future cause of my disability

I cant put in the work effort req for a job

Im good at computers

I can set up websites with ease

Im very creative

I write music as a way to cope

But im not doing good in any aspect

Inclusa knows and are struggling to find help

Idk what to do but tbh i just want my life over!<

Theres a chance i may have fibro its not official i see my doctor again tommorrow but it makes sence

It would explain all the pain random unexplained injuries and why no testing has ever found anything

Ive been in pain for a while tho ive been afraid to ask for help its embarrassing to need help idk why my doctor said i may need assisted living but im scared and cause my disability is invisible it makes me feel like an imposter like im faking it even tho im not

And if this is true that i do hsve fibro what will that look like for me

Is my dream to bike accrossed country over will this get worst what can i expect out of treatment

You dont know me

You dont know my disabilies

You dont know what i do

You only assume

I work hard on my music i write the lyrics melody structure all myself i even crrated the voice to represent it the only true part thats ai is the instruments (also the only part i wouldnt mind having redone by someone its needed to boost my music but it could be so much better)

I do this cause i dont have a voice i have the creativity to create exactly how the song should sound every word everything you hear i wrote and i built and rebuilt til i got it right

Its my own work

All i asked was 1 question

For a girls only discord that is supportive of ai

If your plan is to post your anti ai vile

Stop and leave i dont want to hear it

Ai is not stealing it uses public content the same way humans do

I am not telling you to use ai so if you plan to come here do so with an answer or respect

Thats not to much to ask

So im a disabled creater And slso college student for computer science I rely on AI for many things to help me My music applies a voice i created and instruments but lyrics styles melodies are all written and guided by me

And i like to be able to create and share my work without ppl raging cause ai was involved Please let ne know of any