u/TrashGullible2803

I know many of you take Suno very seriously when it comes to writing lyrics and all that, but does anyone else find themselves in a situation where the lyrics make absolutely zero sense, yet you still love the song because it’s catchy?? Some have even given me literal eargasms despite it not making any sense. 🤭

For instance, I generated an R&B/rap-sounding song that’s literally about turkey. Turkey this, turkey that. The song is chaotic and dumb, but I don’t care because it ironically sounds amazing and the vocals are so good!

I have literally 100 songs that I obviously couldn’t legitimately release (I know if I did people would be like what?…), but I enjoy listening to them anyway. It’s like my little secret lol.

Anyone else?

Basically I want to move out and be independent but it doesn’t feel realistic for me right now. It feels like other people just learned how to do life and I kind of didn’t, and now I’m trying to figure everything out at once and it’s been pretty overwhelming.

My home situation isn’t good. My mom has always been controlling and emotionally draining to live with, and I think it’s made it really hard for me to feel confident or capable on my own. We live off government assistance, so money is always tight and there’s no real stability. I can only work part-time because of the rules with assistance, and my mom is very strict about that since our income is basically combined to keep us housed. If that support wasn’t there, we’d be homeless.

So I feel kind of trapped in it. Like I know I need to leave eventually but I also don’t really see a way out of...this

Not having a car makes everything worse. I live in Arkansas and it really feels like you need a car here to function at all. There is public transportation but it’s not great and it’s not always reliable, and it usually means a lot of walking or waiting around in places I don’t always feel comfortable in.

I don’t really have anyone I can rely on either. I’m not close with family and I don’t have friends I could ask for rides or help. So it kind of feels like I’m figuring everything out completely alone.

I have pretty bad social anxiety and avoidant traits. I find it really hard to talk to people or put myself in situations where I have to socialize. Even the idea of getting a roommate makes me anxious because it feels like too much interaction and too much risk. I think a lot of it comes from growing up not really being allowed to socialize much, so I just never built those skills.

And I’ve been dealing with depression and dissociation too. I’m on Wellbutrin but most days I just feel kind of disconnected from myself, like I don’t really have a strong sense of who I am or where I’m going. It’s hard to imagine a future when everything feels kind of blurry like that.

I already have some student debt from changing majors before, so I’m scared of making things worse financially without really knowing what I’m doing. I was previously going to school to get a bachelor's in Computer Science, but I struggled to pass basic math classes. I ended up having to settle for something else, but I eventually burned out of that because of depression. Now I transferred to a small community college to study medical coding, which is only supposed to be 2 years, but it’s not guaranteed that I will get into the program. It’s an interview/selection thing, and I don’t even know if it’s actually a stable path long term.

It just feels like everything is kind of stacked against me right now: no car, no stable job, mental health stuff, no real support system, and no clear direction forward. I am seeing other people my age, and they seem to already have all that figured out. Even people younger than me already have cars and stuff, and I just don’t know how to make that happen…

Another thing I worry about is whether I could even live alone, given how behind I feel in a lot of basic life skills. Even if I did manage to move out, I’m not sure I’d be able to handle everything that comes with being completely on my own. I picture myself alone, trying to keep up with everything and struggling just to get through the day. I also worry that I’ll fall further into dissociation and no longer recognize myself because of how alone I will be. That thought scares me a lot.  

I want to be independent really badly but I don’t know what the first step is supposed to be when everything feels like it’s missing?

If anyone has actually been in a situation like this and figured their way out of it, I’d really like to know how you started.