u/TrickyHold7392

Hi, I am not honestly too sure why I have decided to post this all here but maybe hearing from people dealing or dealt with the same issue will inspiring.

I feel like life is a constant "tough time", I am always feeling so shitty about myself and about my place in life. I recently had a close family bereavement, someone who is younger than myself, M24.

I suffered a lot through University with feelings of being alone among friends, wanting to hid away in my room cause hatred of how I look. I struggled socially after covid and went from a top of all classes student to scrapping together a computer science degree. And then to incredibly struggle with getting any job. I work a dead end office job.

I find myself struggling to want to go to bed at night, having the feeling of 'another day wasted' and yet also struggle to want to ever get out of bed. I find a very great reliance on video games and tv shows as a sort of escapism but I am so aware how bad that can be for physical and mental health but otherwise I am crying mess.

I have close friends who I would love to talk to this about but when I bring this stuff up a lot of times its under cared for as I am the laughing and joking happy guy. I feel like I have no purpose in life and with a understanding on value of life I don't know where or what to do. I have been loving getting into art, I would love to develop games in some capacity. I am always being told to pursue cooking more seriously.

I recently enough got a PT and that was good, I started to lose some weight, I am not really overweight but its enough to be tired after could flights of stairs. I then had to give the PT up cause it was too expensive and I had a very emotional down first half to the year and I have almost put it all back on again.

I feel like I have just through so much paint at a wall, apologies but I would love to hear any advice or even just talk to others who have or are going though something similar 😄

Life Recently

Hi, I am not honestly too sure why I have decided to post this all here but maybe hearing from people dealing or dealt with the same issue will inspiring.

I feel like life is a constant "tough time", I am always feeling so shitty about myself and about my place in life. I recently had a close family bereavement, someone who is younger than myself, M24.

I suffered a lot through University with feelings of being alone among friends, wanting to hid away in my room cause hatred of how I look. I struggled socially after covid and went from a top of all classes student to scrapping together a computer science degree. And then to incredibly struggle with getting any job. I work a dead end office job.

I find myself struggling to want to go to bed at night, having the feeling of 'another day wasted' and yet also struggle to want to ever get out of bed. I find a very great reliance on video games and tv shows as a sort of escapism but I am so aware how bad that can be for physical and mental health but otherwise I am crying mess.

I have close friends who I would love to talk to this about but when I bring this stuff up a lot of times its under cared for as I am the laughing and joking happy guy. I feel like I have no purpose in life and with a understanding on value of life I don't know where or what to do. I have been loving getting into art, I would love to develop games in some capacity. I am always being told to pursue cooking more seriously.

I recently enough got a PT and that was good, I started to lose some weight, I am not really overweight but its enough to be tired after could flights of stairs. I then had to give the PT up cause it was too expensive and I had a very emotional down first half to the year and I have almost put it all back on again.

I feel like I have just through so much paint at a wall, apologies but I would love to hear any advice or even just talk to others who have or are going though something similar 😄

Life Recently

Hi, I am not honestly too sure why I have decided to post this all here but maybe hearing from people dealing or dealt with the same issue will inspiring.

I feel like life is a constant "tough time", I am always feeling so shitty about myself and about my place in life. I recently had a close family bereavement, someone who is younger than myself, M24.

I suffered a lot through University with feelings of being alone among friends, wanting to hid away in my room cause hatred of how I look. I struggled socially after covid and went from a top of all classes student to scrapping together a computer science degree. And then to incredibly struggle with getting any job. I work a dead end office job.

I find myself struggling to want to go to bed at night, having the feeling of 'another day wasted' and yet also struggle to want to ever get out of bed. I find a very great reliance on video games and tv shows as a sort of escapism but I am so aware how bad that can be for physical and mental health but otherwise I am crying mess.

I have close friends who I would love to talk to this about but when I bring this stuff up a lot of times its under cared for as I am the laughing and joking happy guy. I feel like I have no purpose in life and with a understanding on value of life I don't know where or what to do. I have been loving getting into art, I would love to develop games in some capacity. I am always being told to pursue cooking more seriously.

I recently enough got a PT and that was good, I started to lose some weight, I am not really overweight but its enough to be tired after could flights of stairs. I then had to give the PT up cause it was too expensive and I had a very emotional down first half to the year and I have almost put it all back on again.

I feel like I have just through so much paint at a wall, apologies but I would love to hear any advice or even just talk to others who have or are going though something similar : )