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Anyone have any experience with being watched due to school finding out u sh - i got reported the other day cus my pastoral teacher saw my arm and my HoY phoned home. I didnt think much of it tbh until I left a lesson 5 mins early before a meeting and I was in the toilets and could hear people looking for me and shouting and panicking ehen I had only been gone 2 mins??? What actually is going on? Ive never experienced anything like this or teachers attempting to keep tabs on where I am

Does anyone else crave super sweet food? Before my ed i never craved sweet food, i was a savory gal but since my ed, I've been thinking about just sweet food even if its stuff I don't even remember actually liking?? Like blueberry muffins, pancake, waffles etc

What foods do you crave?

Has anyone had cbt to treat an ed, specifically anorexia - im 17 - whats it like? what do sessions look like? Does it involve physical observations or situation practicing like eating? Has it worked and if so how long did it take?

Has anyone had cbt to treat an ed, specifically anorexia - im 17 - whats it like? what do sessions look like? Does it involve physical observations or situation practicing like eating? Has it worked and if so how long did it take?

Today I received a letter in the post basically saying that eating disorder services are discharging me and this is a load of BS.

I am seventeen and last year on my birthday I got safeguarded for having severe restriction etc and got triaged and ended up with EDS. After my assessment (which was horrible may I add) i was told that there are many ways of help that I can access but they won't accept me because I was too far into disordered thoughts and my restriction was severe? I was not like awfully underweight, my bmi at the tike was right at the cut of between underweight and healthy so it can't have been to do with that. Basically I got told no talking therapies would take me as from the 3h assessment they knew me, they knew I wouldn't be the right person for it? I have audhd so yeah an interigation style assessment asking deep and uncomfortable personal questions isnt gunna get the best response from me. Since then ive had approximately 6 medical observations- 3 of which were because they didnt believe the number i told them i had been restricting to, so their meal plan which they told mt parents to make sure I follow by any means necessary gave me refeeding syndrome. Great. Since then ive had 3 others, (November, February, April) in all these they did weight, pulse and bp which have not been concerning, ive been gaining steady very slowly and havent yet reached a target healthy weight.

In August I got told I had another observation. I have been quite badly struggling and knew smrh would be wrong but wasnt really sure. However it ended up being a 1h questioning as to why I didnt want to do fbt and then talking metaphorically about my emotions. Obviously i didnt not engage with this very well as it wasnt what I expected. When she finally did my observations she sat me and my mum down and told us this was worrying. My pulse was low and so was my bp and oxygen. I had dropped in weight and she explicitly said it would be dangerous to lose any more weight as it would result in being underweight and medically unstable which might result in hospital and that i should get bloods and heart monitored again. That was the end of that. Traumatic.

In the post today i received a letter saying that I was being discharged from eds. That's it. Because I didnt want to engage in FBT as someone who is eighteen in under a week and told her it would make my situation worse. This was upsetting ofc, but when my mum rang up to say like yeah we understand shes discharged but can we get her medical obs done before they said no. My mum argued and said she didnt agree with the discharge and that what they offer wasnt compatible with neurodivergent individuals who were clearly struggling but didnt know how to help them.

This has left me in a really hard position because ive been left, knowing that what im on the verge of hospitalisation but now im not even allowed ro go and get checked out? They said it has to be thru the gp now but bro that aint quick and if im on deaths door thats not gunna work. I just dont understand why they would discharge me if my obs were quite clearly worrying

Ever since I began wearing short sleeves 2 of my friends (we are a group of 6) have become very distant and almost wary of me. Idk how to describe it but they are always looking at my scars on my arm and through my tights but just act weird about it. Not scared and not uncomfortable but just distant idk like they dont see me the same way anymore.

Ik this is probably true as yeah I guess it has changed how they view me but I hoped it would just be ignored like how my other friends do. They have stopped really interacting with me and when they are with me they are unusually quiet and kind of apprehensive about being around me.

Its not like I show fresh cuts or anything, on my arm I was covering it up with a bandage for ages until I felt it was socially acceptable to show and they were fine with that but since it came off its all an issue? Its my upper arm so idk if they didnt expect that was what happened... no asking me about anything tho.

I actually don't understand my brain. My ed has come back strong af after I took my chemistry test in school and I found it really hard. Ik that sounds stupid but its a thing that every holiday/half term i begin obsessively walking, like alot, I spend the whole day doing laps of my house and yes ik this isnt great especially when I begin restricting while im doing this, but it means I do little to no revision and i normally have tests after half term but im too exhausted to revise or literally dont have time cus im busy walking. This half term is the first one in a good year when I actively tried to stop this, I was trying to eat intuitively and didnt do any ott walking. This meant I did alot of revison even tho I felt lazy. I was determined to get a good grade in my chemistry test as this will go towards ucas and in my last test I got a U (i was walking and restricting at this time).

I spent alot of time doing revsion, get to the test. Can't do it. Its really hard and it fully upsets me cus I tried reallyyy hard. Its just like why tf did I stop doing the things that ik im good at and kinda make me happy just to probably fail again.

When is it kinda socially acceptable to wear short sleeves im school? As in healing process wise?? Ive been wearing a platser thing over my arm over scabs but when is it ok to take that off? Is it a case of when the scabs fall off or more like maybe 1-2 weeks old idk

Idk if it makes any difference but its my upper arm and im very pale so marks are kinda obvious, I just don't want to be like a trigger or smth