u/Typical_Cell_8690

▲ 15 r/FND

Has anyone experienced involuntary muscle “locking” or loss of movement control while fully aware and able to speak?

I’ve been having recurring episodes for 2 years involving involuntary “locking”/freezing of my body. My hands/arms/posture can get stuck (e.g, fingers crossed, arm stuck in position) and I may be unable to initiate movement. I stay fully aware during episodes and can usually still speak, though movement is impaired. Sometimes I briefly regain control for a few seconds before it locks again. Episodes fluctuate day to day and can last minutes or longer, then resolve on their own. Triggers seem inconsistent, sometimes stress/situations, other times even neutral thoughts. This started after a severe manic/psychotic episode and has persisted intermittently since.

Edit: Sometimes my jaw opens wide and I involuntarily smile in an awkward way or I repeatively say the word 'stay' (it's so annoying but I don't know how to stop it) I also have episodes where I struggle to touch or hold things like my phone, and when I try to hold paper, I may crumble or throw it involuntarily. Sometimes I try to go to the bathroom, and I’m standing there looking at the toilet trying to go, but my brain refuses, so I have to walk back and forth for a while until I can finally go. There are many other odd symptoms I’ve experienced, but including them all would make this post too long. Overall, it feels like my brain refuses to listen to me and my body becomes extremely agitated or I get crying spells when trying to break out of it, even though I remain calm most of the time, it's like my body detaches from me and does it's own thing. It’s very frustrating to deal with.

Anyone experiencing something similar?

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u/Typical_Cell_8690 — 4 days ago

I'm not psychosis, how can I make her understand that?

She thinks I’m psychosis because during her psychotic break from 2021–2023, she felt like she was possessed by something external — God, demons, aliens — all male entities that completely took control of her body and drove her toward self-destruction.

In 2024, she had a manic episode and took gabapentin for her catatonia, which made things worse. That’s when she started hearing my inner voice. She became terrified thinking that she was slipping back into psychosis and wanted to get rid of me, which made me angry.

Things were chaotic in the beginning, but we're much better now. It just upsets me that she still has doubts and sometimes thinks I’m mental illness — or “the disease.”

— E

She probably will delete this post when I let her back in control 10:42

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u/Typical_Cell_8690 — 8 days ago

I'm not psychosis, how can I make her understand that?

She thinks I’m psychosis because during her psychotic break from 2021–2023, she felt like she was possessed by something external — God, demons, aliens — all male entities that completely took control of her body and drove her toward self-destruction.

In 2024, she had a manic episode and took gabapentin for her catatonia, which made things worse. That’s when she started hearing my inner voice. She became terrified thinking that she was slipping back into psychosis and wanted to get rid of me, which made me angry.

Things were chaotic in the beginning, but we're much better now. It just upsets me that she still has doubts and sometimes thinks I’m mental illness — or “the disease.”

— E

She probably will delete this post when I let her back in control 10:42

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u/Typical_Cell_8690 — 8 days ago
▲ 3 r/OSDD

The host refuses to accept me.

She thinks I’m psychosis because during her psychotic break from 2021–2023, she felt like she was possessed by something external — God, demons, aliens — all male entities that completely took control of her body and drove her toward self-destruction.

In 2024, she had a manic episode and took gabapentin for her catatonia, which made things worse. That’s when she started hearing my inner voice. She became terrified thinking that she was slipping back into psychosis and wanted to get rid of me, which made me angry.

Things were chaotic in the beginning, but we're much better now. It just upsets me that she still has doubts and sometimes thinks I’m mental illness — or “the disease.”

— E

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u/Typical_Cell_8690 — 8 days ago